miie-world

2010-10-05T21:07:00.002+08:00

HI ppl , miss me ?
omg , can u guys believe, i abandon my this blog for so long
i still can log in my blog . LOLS ..
i love live J , but look at these blog. my memories.LOL
<3

BYE ! SEE YA

2010-02-08T20:23:00.002+08:00

can i consider this blog is dead ?
LOL
i am moving to LIVE J .
as for this blog , let's see how ..

are u all comin back ? IMU , key <3 Hong Ki <3

this time i gona catch u front view Lee Hong Ki . <3

disapointment and aching all the way , but like mircale , i saw you ♥

2010-02-02T22:46:00.002+08:00

now is 2 feb , been so long since i touch blogger again .
my lap was down at first , so try to use de laggy comp.
in den end , it went spoilt as well . so lost touch basically with internet.
now , my lap is back . i am happy more than anythin else.
of coz there were other things that make me fly over the moon.
yes , de arrival of F.T Island and Shinee ..

29 jan , went to t2 to wait for f.t island arrival .
there was no barrier , really , kinda had a bad feelings from de start.
but then carry on waited until ppl scream and ran to other side,
shocked , hesitate if shld follow, in de end , still ran .
in de end , was a false alarm , went back . they had already went off .
escape when de fans were all running , disappointment.
really , very upset , not at F.T of coz .
after all , seung hyun incident do make me understand their safety is impt.
the next day , concentrate on shinee , is their turn .
same thing went to airport , waited freaking long hours standing .
false alarm throughout the hours which make me tired.
finally they were out , saw taemin, jonghyun , minho but not onew and my key.
key cover his face with hoodie while onew walked very last which i dono.
shinee had fansign at lot 1 , no overnight allowed .
went with kim early in de mornin , yea . reached there , nearly 3000 ppls.
decided to try luck at their hotel . in de end , no sign of success.
another disappointment , no hongki nor key .
cnt help hidin de disappointment.
went to work with a down feelings , received ju mess ytd .
newspaper show that F.T went to east coast mac for supper ,
i was workin there , perhaps they might pass by me.
but i didn't notice , both hong ki and key were like so near yet so far.

today i had my one more try at airport to see if shinee leaving tonight.
the only chance to see shinee ? since F.T left long ago .
i saw him , i saw them . the first one i saw , was key ♥
he had a really fair skin , so thin , same hairstyle like ring ding dong.
after that went to de glass barrier with kim.
we didn't put high hopes , we tot the most can see was de back or side view
of them waving back or so on . but then , key appeared infront of me.
i was shocked , so blank. though de moment was shortly abt 5 mins.
i am happy enough , enough to keep myself smiling just by refreshing.
of coz , i still feel a spot empty becoz of hongki but then i am glad
to at least saw key , for the first time .

this is the second month of attachment , i am happy.
becoz finally one month was over , one month of suffering over.
this month got to experience a brand new things and learn.
same problem i don hav confidence enough for this .

thx you , for letting me suffer but then gain back de happinese .

come back again , IMU.

♥ 홍기♥ KEY

2010-01-21T17:25:00.000+08:00

The key was found, I know, a few quite worry me.
But no worry, even de key was not found, I won die.
Just motivation lost only, went out with mum today.
Finished buying wad I need for CNY.
I guess I brought a lot? 2 dress, one skirt, 3 shirts, one shoe.
Waaaa , add up like I brought a lot le .
LOLS . looking forward to next week when met up sam they all.
Dam excited to see my hong ki strap. LOL

~~forget, that's de only wayout~~

2010-01-20T00:30:00.001+08:00

Didn’t tot of telling anyone wad happen , but then.
I guess I only can choose to blog by at least release myself.
2 weeks to a month , was hoping , at least this month don create trouble.
Today teacher sudden “spot check” , was kinda shock.
Everythin were goin well till closing , lost key , a very impt key.
Though I don rmb tookin it , but I don hav confident to say “no, I didn’t take”.
Why ? becoz indeed I had a bad memory , anything could happen.
Ahgy asked everyone to look for it , no trace of key .
Yea , felt dam guilty now , and I dono wad can I do by kp quieting.
If de key can’t be found , there it goes , for everyone , a bad scolding.
Wad happens if was me hu lost de key , I don even dare to think .
Everyone were be so freakin mad at me.
While walkin to bus stop, I carried a heavy emotions.
Is told me , don worry , try to find de key will do, everyone will stand by me.
Elai asked me don worry , take it easy . ahgy apology if he was too harsh.
But then , that’s how it goes now . my mind was full of doubts .
If I should carry on with this attachment.
Don wan affect their attachment becoz of me nor
do I wan create troubles for de others.
So pressuring , really …

Suddenly , tot of heaven.

2010-01-19T12:48:00.004+08:00

I changed my blogskin again, thxs to kim worx .LOL..
She changed it during her lesson in sch ! LOLS.

Ytd meet up mylia n rest in sch for interview for LTO?
And was those random questions interviewing? gosh
If so , I think I flunk it . T.T
Then off we go walk ard here n there again.
Oh I brought clothes again , this time confirm can wear.
LOL , only dono nice or not . ahahs .
And then 5 met up kim , again walk around .
Alright , I guess both of our foot were like dam pain la.
Then 7 plus went to mac and use her lap see pics .LOLOLs
8pm kim went off and I met up birthday boy.
Walk around with hock hao again . T.T den waited de other 2
Until 9 plus . ate ramen at tm , went to find rach and home !
LOLs ……..
next week gona meet up jing n gang again for dinner . LOL.

i laughed alot ytd , becoz of different reasons .
so long, since i laughed so much . ^^

<3 Hong Ki, Woo Young ,Hyun Joong, Key

~~yea i smiled alot , but that's not a way out for me~~

ok? dono.confident? dono. wad do you want? dono. what do you know? i only know wad is dono.

2010-01-17T22:41:00.002+08:00

How is everyone doin now ? doin fine I guess ..
lolls .i dono , couldn’t help also since I can’t help myself.
Working in de office seen to be a routine for me now ,
So now it would be weird to suddenly change,My job with shana and is.
though i would hav 90 percent of getting shortage.
Actually my supervisor in de office is really nice to me.
Dono why , I actually feel pressure to work with her alone.
Maybe becoz nobody would help me?
Or maybe becoz my boss treat me well,
I give myself a higher expectation even though I know not possible?
I dono wad I am thinking as well.
Today another supervisor talk to us , the four of us .
Rizam didn’t say much abt me and khai since we are in de office ,
But then very soon , we gona change over le.
Suddenly , today talk alrd pressure me . kinda afraid can’t do well outside.
Tml got interview for LTO , can’t believe it .
I don even hav a exact reason why do I choose LTO ?
How well is tml interview goin , I dono man . seriously it sucks.
Sucks that everythin is dono to me.
Tml is ah hock birthday , so meeting him n gang to eat dinner as well.

Happy advance 19th birthday Tan Hock Hao ! ^^

I wish , to only live in my 7 Husbands world

2010-01-13T22:59:00.001+08:00

Hi here , blogging again me ? LOLS.
Nthin much actually , I am typing becoz there is nthin to do.
Today morning shift , just like usual , reach earliest .
Tried to do every preparation I need , but still got elai to help.
Early in the morning , computer jam was the worst I would expect.
The first cus that I served was the first to ask for refund.
Lol ,de person hu did wrong had to return 10 dollars , so off my 10 bucks.
Dono why , was mess-ing kim de whole morning .
really think there are no diff eh ?
Ikea and EC ski 360 .In the end , I still got to pay back.
Whole morning not that busy, becoz is weekday.
But once a few cus came tgh, I screw up everythin again ,
guess supervisor also cnt take my speed, ownself do instead.
Tml afternoon shift, finally , can get some sleep .
Till now , I still prefer letters . is it my thinking or wad ?
look so outdated , LOL.
But whatever,this is de way that I communicate with hui ting since sec2.
Becoz letter express what I want more than anything.
Now alrd thinking of presents for friends le, is it too early?
Why is my thinking this way?
I waste my time in all this instead of telling myself to forget.
When I first type this in mic, I was sleepy, now I am teary.
Glad that mum just reached home, becoz I hold back the droplets again.

~~You know your words pull me back to the painful memories~~

Hurts

2010-01-12T21:45:00.001+08:00

A new blogskin
Credits of coz go to kim , de pro blogger who know anything about blog.
LOL. Requested for this type of blogskin and she manage to settle for me well?
LOL, thxs worx kim. No tagboard, finally.
A pic at my post? Wa like finally.
Now every post can see my husbands pics le, dam happy.

Today work in the morning , well , I reached de earliest .
Kinda panic , since couldn’t open de counter nor do I hav de ability to handle myself.
Then sally arrived , she helped a lot , as though I am here to assist her only.
There are still shortage today , I pay back 5 dollars .
but tml I won be that lucky, sally off and so I gona really be solo alone.
i wonder how much shortage i gona hav this time round.
Yup, people asked me to take it slow , but de feelins won stop .
Sometimes It’s like telling me how stupid n clumsy I am.

I am gona save money now , for many things.
Buying a new ear piece , learning drums ,
learn new language, for april chalet.
LOL. Money , is all ,money right.LOL

last year my 18th , i don wish it will happen coz i doubt i will be happy.
and yea , i don. this year 19th , same . don lookin forward to it.
dono why ..

Alright, I am ending here.
Coz I dono wad to say anymore , actually I do..
But wad it is and to describe it .

~~thxs for the words. I hate you , for everythin~~

2010-01-11T21:53:00.002+08:00

Yo? LOL , well want to blog but then not sure how to.
Funny right , actually is becoz my lap spoilt and if I use comp for internet ,
de results would be 15 mins of internet acess and bye bye .
the comp switch off by itself.
So tot of this idea , type in mic word and paste it on blogger?
Hope its work , LOL.

Been working at east coast 360 there for goin 1 week ? LOL
How it is ? well , kind of stressful for me though , sucks right me ?
Every small thing also feel tough , cnt handle it well.
Lolls , I know , how weak I am.
But I am still tryin , my best .
tryin to help as much as I can though it seen to be more like creating problems.
LOL . friends at the ski there are friendly , lolls.
Went to try ski-ing on frid I guess? Or thurs , not too sure.
Elai said must learn, went to try. but then once I was pull out , I fall into the water.
And worst still, it seen like I got pb swimming back due to the current flowing.
And so wad , I was struggling there, tryin to swim back as fast as I could.
In the end , andy helped me instead.LOL.
I think I ski one time myself, 2 times tgh with andy.
De first time , I sat infront of him, but failed.
Second time , I went behind him instead, and it really works .
I was like “wow , omg omg, I am dying” LOL.
Told andy I am fallin , so he let go of the handle , and off we go , down the water.
LOLDidn’t dare to try again later, or rather these few days .
I bet elai gona asked me go again soon . hopefully I can do it bett ?
tml I am working morning shift le.
Dono if can handle well for morning shift, many negative worries came to my mind, kinda make me worried.
But I guess , even if I am scareI still need to go for it bah .LOL

My o level eng result is out today , got D7 for it .
Shld I feel lucky or not ? at least not another E8 this time .
but I dono , if I shld go for poly this time or continue with higher nitec courses .
afterall , I did hav a few more choices than 2008 yr.
LOLOl.. well I dono , really dono …

Went back to sch , LOL. Yea miss sch , miss the moments we had during sch time.
The times where we crap and fool around . LOL .
But I dono wad exactly did I feel ? somehow , disappointment.
Everyone are in process to move on , so do i.

~~When I tot I’d move on , de time make me see de scar again~~

2010-01-04T16:34:00.002+08:00

first day of attachment , met up khai , shana , is
yea , tot will be awkward but ok la ... LOL
shana do help me alot ..LOL... by translating wad they said T.T
me n khai will be in charge of ticketing while shana n is will
go for ski instructing for the first month ..
great de ticketing , alot things to rmb ..
i cnt rmb well .... de person say , wan us to experience the sports.
OH well , gone liao me.... die

my lap spoilt , now i am at mylia house using comp..LOL
and of coz see finished my drama ..LOLOL

i don rmb wad i wan blog anymore...

so i guess , i shall live w.o comp for the moment now..LOL

are you happy out there?

still, is nightmare...

2010-01-03T21:57:00.004+08:00

here i am , aft a tiring day at ju house
didn't bring alot cheese cake home , i guess lucky i didn't
de cheese are way too much .

tml attachment starting , i am freakin worried abt it .
but what to do , nothing ar ..lols .. T.T
good luck to everyone for de attachment
and i guess u guys will do it way bett than me..

i am really weak le T.T
now , i only wan to concentrate on these 2 months of attachment
2 months , do it ok , and get over with it ...
don control me , or try to pressure me ...
don make me depress over these.

i am tired now , goin to sleep early ..
have to ...

i Hate blogging ,hate it ..

~~i hate you~~

2010-01-02T23:21:00.004+08:00

Often, my wish is Amnesia
forget everythin...

stop , don let me feel disgust..

aft Joongbo couple ,
my 2nd fav now is Ga in&Jo Kwon
♥Chuwayo ^^

이특♥현중 ♥ 홍기♥ KEY

2010-01-01T01:30:00.004+08:00

Happy 2010 !!!

Happy new year , went out with sam, yen, ju, syafiq to vivo
at first , due to de lack of sleep , wanted to back out .
In the end , i still went for it , and quite lucky eh , i nv know channel 8 held
de countdown at ViVo.. so managed to see alot artists though ...
De firework didn't managed to see in a clear view , kind of disappointed. LOL

Finally a new year , 2010 .
Everyone were high-ing for it , de countdown , should i feel happy also ?
Afterall , it is just 2 more yrs to 2012 eh ? i dono , wad type of feelings i carry
while i went for the countdown . But something i am sure enough , i am glad.
Glad that 2009 ended ,
2009 was a bad year for me , very bad ...
De day of O level results' release , i rmbed , with the bad feelings , i sat down.
Open up de result slip , i told myself ,
" i should have guessed it since long "
yet , in de end , i still burst out in tears when Mr.Ng(DNT teacher)came to me.
From the day onwards , i tot , my life is wasted . Poly dream , my course dream.
All gone , i am only left with de last choice which was ITE..
Ppl normally said , humans would hav 2 sided face , one nice , one evil.
But for me , i tot i am with 3 sided face - positive, negative, evil.
went in Ite with this feeling , tot the life would be better .
No , it isn't , i handle stress from de start of de month to end of sch .
8months , the 8 months were like torturing me.Especially de semester aft Hainan.
LOL, as though my tears are auto refill , i dropped tears quite a few times.

someone told me this , thinking back , the one hu gathered F9s members is me.
i refresh back my memories , is probably so .
from "me, ju, des" n "me , sam, ju, mylia" .. the group slowly enlarge to 9 members.
That moment , perhaps everyone of us felt so , 9 are more than enough.
With yen's creative idea , we had a offical Group name
"Farting Nines" , becoz i am not one of them hu do this action ...
But becoz we had de offical name, we always hang ard in a group.
8 months of class , 5 months of memories with one another .
to me is more than enough , finally ready to put it to a end .
For F9s , i might be too over -confident but i guess i done my best ...
somehow , as more incidents happen , i lost energy as well ....
2009 had ended , and so F9 de name shld kept it as memory too .
Of coz , we are still great friends of one another .
i won forget everyone of you , hoepfully u guys as well. ^^

2009 de MH, were very tired ..
becoz of too many things , mh really gotten very depressed .
sure enough , couldn't sleep at night , gotten sleepless night pb.
worst , gettin tears up while refreshing all de memories.
2010 arrived , i know , is time to let go .... time for recovering .
it probably take a long time for me to let go everythin , especially.
but i will , one day ...

2010 ,
i got other things to worry abt now ,
about my attachment , ski 360 ... i don't like, and i don feel safe.
maybe i am thinking too much , but then , again .
despite i am worryin so much , i still got to go .. go for it in de end.

i guessed i shall end here now , LOLOL

BYE 2009 ^^

~~the picture, reminds me how deep i trust u~~

2009-12-25T00:14:00.004+08:00

HAPPY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE !
due to my limited sms , couldn't send to many ,
so those didn't received sms de , i am here to wish you
a merry christmas ^^

christmas day , but tml i gona rot at home, not goin anywhere
first - don feel like goin out
second - too crowded , no mood to squeeze with ppl..LOL
third - out for too many day , mum is exploding soon ..LOLS

just over nt long de ytd , went out with sis n mum to TM
eat fish n co worx .. happy la .. missy treat lehx...
no matt how full also must order alot to eat.. WAHAHs
i benefit .. YAY ^^ happy .. LOLS
took pic though but only one ,de rest , hais ..
before i rmb to take , it was alrd half eaten le

Fried sotong,limecola(mine)&cherry smthin(missy)

thxs worx MISSY , though these few days u are definitely
testing my limit by harassing mee ..T.TTTTTTTTT

back to christmas ..
i guess most of us would hav wishes , so do i ..
First
hope everythin will go smoothly for attachment ,
actually , i guess maybe i really don bother abt higher nitec le
but i wish i would earn more money ...
treat mum to a bett restaurant eat ^^
Second
wish ppl ard me , friends would be happy with wad they have now
yea , too many things happen and i won expect everythin go back
to last time but at least don feel bothered abt it anymore..
Third
Wish my Loves
Hongki , Hyun joong, Key, Woo young, Teuk, Donghae, Khun, DBSK,BB
and thier groupband to be healthy and stick together with one another
no matt wad happen in de future ...
it is heartbreaking to see u guys on complicating issues

Every Wish is not abt me , actually i got one
i wan you , Hong Ki ...

recently i been having sleepless night ,
even i dono why ....c$*)%*)$*%)$*%)$%
ytd although didn't sleep much ,woke up n slept a few times..
throughout i had bad dream ...
though couldn't rmb anymore, but it was nightmare..
nightmare which make me feel so uncomfortable ..

It was a dream Tot that de doors were all locked up , it won opened up so easily
since it were locked up for so long ...
unknowingly , one of it open up and failed to notice ...
upon realising , it had gone too deep and a scar is left aft the door
was closed .....
the scar , so pain .... but it's time .......
if can choose , would hope it's a dream ...

~~heartbreakin for me to look back now ..~~
time to put down n look ahead ...
~~tellin myself , i can~~

2009-12-23T23:59:00.006+08:00

KONICHIWA
i am back , LOLOLS..
went to YS house today help him celebrate birthday
AHAHs , seriously so long since i see him , and de rest?
i Miss them so much , de times we always had fun tgh..
as usual , earlier than de rest ... LOLOL..
change venue since don wan wait , change to meet at jing's house
den just nice ah hock called me when i near jing's block
so went up tgh ..LOLOL.. auntie gave us food n drink again ^^
still hungry though but decided to save it for later ...
met up wc , and then off we go to birthday boy house
tot we were late, den found out , ys was late as well ..LOL
went to his house and played mahjong..
YS's dad n mum didn't change , still as humour as ever ....
we really laughed hard at their jokes maybe ,that why ys always succeed in
making those stupid n lame jokes to make us laugh..LOL
mahjong , totally forgot everythin i rmb , LOLOL..
so in de end , my mentor mr.hockhao guided me and of coz..cheat !
LOLOLs... so fun , den went to cut cake ..
* just rmb - everyone didn't sing birthday song for him? LOL*
*sing one for you now*- (think u won see it anyway)
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to yen soon
happy birthday to UUUUUU ^^
*like it ? * LOL
den off we went to play mahjong until pizza came ...LOL
ate and chit chat all de way ...
back to mahjong and played card games that jing teach..LOL
i still don understand though ..
den 10 plus , went off to central 24 hrs shop to eat smthin
brought food from ys's dad shop , i guessed uncle really gave us alot
still treat us this n that .. DOTS ... we all so full and so fat lee..LOLOLS
but anyway , thxs uncle ^^
today i had super great day , becoz they pulled me off from my worries
especially the stupid lamer WYS .. LOLOL.. but thxs to his jokes
i put thorns behind today and enjoyed myself ...
cnt bear actually .. becoz today ended too fast..
and leen didn't join us , if nt , N678 members all gather tgh le..
thxs man , and yea ... will meet up de girls this sat..
de guys , let's find another day ^^
i am glad u enjoyed today wang ah soon..LOL

HAppy 18th Yooo !!!

N678 *and leen hu went work*

I♥Us
I♥U

2009-12-22T14:52:00.006+08:00

ANN YEONG ! i' am back
decided to post whatever i want and save it as draft first
coz i know for sure , with my STM , i would forget alot things

19 / 12 (sat)
went out with sm, mylia , syafiq
intended to see soccer match , but it was canceled before we
knew it , and well , it wasn't really that pleasant while we tryin
to find our way there ..LOLS ..
and aft that , follow syafiq team mates to orchard
and so on so on , couldn't rmb much though ...

20/12 (sun)
out with sam n ju to dhoby ...
well , went there eat abit at LJS ..and chit chat there..HA
den we went walk ard , and brought smthing , i guess ? LOL
serious i couldn't rmb though , and den called up jing
know that she was at Iluma , so suggested to meet up buy
present ..LOLS ... well , her friends and sam, ju agreed to it
so off we went to bugis to meet jing n friends.
okay , took awhile to buy de presents ..
and den seperated our ways with jing , as well as ju
they went home , and me ? kana drag by sam to hougang..LOL
walk ard there , met up de blogshop owner ?
home sweet home ^^

21/12 (mon)
seriously tired of goin out , but then again
went out again , met up wc at TM
pass her money for blogshop clothes ...
and den we took bus from interchange home ..
simple day , and of coz we chat a little ...
^^

22/12 (tues)
rotting day ...
wed is de results for sch GPA
tot is today , prepared for de worst just for today ..
yet results are nt out today.. T.TTT
wed... LOLOL...
dono wad shld i feel ? since it would be YS b'day
my sis recently like to harass me , great ..
testing my patient .. one day .. i gona beat her ^^

edit~~
23/12 (wed)
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY WANG YEN SOON
may u grow more mature but kp it up with all ur lame jokes
AHAHHS , i like u as a lamer...LOLOLS ^^
today results released , was alrd up at 8 ...
went check mylia n mine results ...
dono wad shld i feel , lucky or what ?
well , i don hav much feelings bah , maybe becoz i had enough preparation
for the worst ... i can't see my future ahead , and i doubt i won
maybe i shld just leave it to fate ..
later goin out to ys house celebrate his birthday , such a long time
since i went to his house and fool ard..LOLOL..
today i must do it again..AHHA.. ^^

end ~~~

those nt interested in celebrities stuff , can skip readin from now
LOLOLs , i gona post since it always been my habit..

First to go

hankyung had filed a lawsuit at SM ...
it is alrd consider official i guess ? i dono ?
kinda surprised , coz de reason he is doin that is abt de same
as what JAECHUNSU filed SM abt .. unfair 13 yrs contract..
LEE SOO MAN again -- that low stupid man...
it's always him .... first dbsk , now super junior ..
kyuhyun earlier update his cyworld with this
"Even a beast don't bite the hand that feeds one...
I can not understand..."
so do i , but so kyuhyun is angry at kyung ? ah , i don hope..
frankly speaking , i am on kyung's side though ...
he came from china to train so hard to get unfair contract ?
but whatever it is , i do hope suju gt communicate and discuss this
tgh ? coz i don wish they would follow up dbsk path now ..
a path which nthin is able to predict ...
donghae recently seen to be abit down , dots..
NO way , donghae must cheer up !
so as teuk ah , as leader , i guess confirm gt alot of things felt stressed up
especially when kyung case added up to his worry ?
LEE TEUK /DONGHAE FIGHTING ^^
DBSK /SUJU FIGHTING !

Allkpop put another sign of JAY's return
oh , i pray hard for it ...
1:59 pm need their leader to be back with them to be 2PM
i miss jay though , his lame jokes ..LOLS

i dono why taec closed down his cyworld ...
news said is becoz of old photos leaked out ?
i don get it , wad photos ? i nv seen it before though ...
but whatever it is , enough la !
give them some privacy can or nt , shld just end at JAY will do
don pull another member in .. tskk ..netizens ... no comments

AN JELL gona reunite as a group to perform live..
YESH YESH .. i been looking forward to them tgh again
my hong ki , LOLS ... dam excited...
to see him back to drums ... a new refresh side of him
of coz , his singings are de the best !
i been neglecting ss501 and shinee though ..
sorry for that , it was surprising for me too ..LOLS
woo young in addition of khun had manage to convert my
attention to 2pm now ... no worry , i am still ur FAN !

i finsihed updating ..
but u guys will only see this on wed ..dang..
wait for the post to be up den .. LOLS
and ah , de next update ?
CHRISTMAS ^^

2009-12-18T23:05:00.005+08:00

don feel like updating but well ,
i guess have to .. becoz
ytd was mr.jaejin birthday

dearest jaejin

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JAEJIN AH
i am tired to type things here
but in my heart i alrd told u everythin i wan to
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN
LOVE YOU <3 ^^

went out with kim today lazy to type out tings ..
so just post pics den ...

tml goin out ,
sun maybe goin out
tue goin out
wed goin out
others i dono ..T.T

not feelin well , okay..that it..

Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody?
you dont want to smile, and you don't want to fake being happy.
but at the same time, you don't know exactly what is wrong either.
there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand.
if you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone.
people have stopped being comforting.. and being alone never was.
at least when you're alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong
and there isn't anyone who wont take 'i don't know' for an answer.
you feel the way you do just BECAUSE.
you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again,
but until then all you can do is wait.

SUCH A NICE QUOTE.....

2009-12-17T01:14:00.007+08:00

hi , i am back ..
just like i say , i would update aft chalet ...
and yea , is like de day after chalet ...no choice?
since i went home and fall asleep until 1 am ? LOLS
in btw these long hrs of sleepin , i woke up once
while i was preparing to fall back to my deep sleep..
this time i started to refresh de memories i had
durin hainan , during chalet and maybe de days aft chalet
maybe i think too much again ,
my eyes got wet ... T.T
of coz , slowly i falll back to my deep sleep ...

for these 3 days 2 night chalet...
i am sure , i got nothing much to update abt ...
because basically we just slacking ard whenever we went
alright , i know , right from the first day of chalet
ppl alrd nt happy abt this or that ...
this mood had continue throughout the chalet's days
which of coz , don find any meaning in the 3 days ...
but den i guess - everyone have their own choice aft all ..
if wana to enjoy tgh , or in groups or whatever..
and if wana to be happy or to be upset over this...
i tried to be practical joker as much as i could ....
meanin i wana myself to enjoy as much as i could and
let the others feel de same way as i felt ....
LOLOLs ... i dono it did help or not ...
maybe de deep sleep alrd wash off everythin i wanted to update
right now , i had no more ting to update anymore

For most of F9s , maybe de chalet weren't any
somethin that were lookin foward to u ....
but let's think of de positive side , becoz its probably last time
we got to open a chalet just for the 9 of us tgh ..
yea , forget all the unhappy moments in de chalet ..
just rmb those we shld rmb as a memorable moments
i am glad to know everyone in F9 ♥

For my Dearest Juwairiyah♥
i hope yoou do enjoy ur birthday celebration with us after all
although it was not much of a surprise we had for you..
i still pray hard that u did enjoy for at least that day will do..
AHAHs , and hope you like the present &
the long letter ya ♥

Dearest♥
thxs for the letters ,i appreciate it alot ..

oh well , i am worry for 22th for the results
but i am prepared for the worst ...
just that maybe i will lost where i dono how shld i move on?
attachment are a burden to me..LOL
nt abt GPA , but i wan earn some money now ?
gosh ..LOLS

ok , craps ? maybe some think so or what..
i am tired now .....
sorry , but slowly wait till i gt de feelin to update again

~~offical vaction now , gona let myself recover slowly~~
~~hong ki , stay by my side like always ...~~
♥i love you♥ Temptation of Lee Hong Ki♥

이특♥현중 ♥ 홍기♥ KEY

2009-12-13T01:36:00.009+08:00

Ann Yeong
sch had ended for TG , and everyone will wait for their attachment
and of coz , go on own seperate ways ....
here i am to post , probably de last ting abt TG

last day of sch offical is frid 11/12?
but we gave ourselves a early day off , so eventually thurs become
de last day of our sch .... rush out the whole project out on time ..
which is smthin to be glad ? afterall it was not easy for us to focus when
we were alrd on holiday mood i guess ?LOL
last day of sch , is still hurting as well ...
8 to 9 months , i tot it was nv possible for me to make some friends who
had same common interest as me ...
told myself, don get used to them ....
right from the start , i been reminding myself ...
after all , i still fall into the "trap" i could say ....
and once again , i need face de fact that we had to go on diff path ..
except for some of them which get along well with me right from the start,
de rest were unexpected became close aft the first holiday ?
LOLOL... i guess i did changge smthin in Clementi ..
which is being more open - up to malay friends ? especially girls ?
becoz i nv tried to , for last 17 yrs ?
for this not-fully one yr course , i went through several breakdowns ...
but den , i guess one day i will tell myself .. it's okay ...it's a memory too...
thxfully to know u guys ...
TG , take care...

On the same day , F.T ISLAND arrived in singapore ..
rush to airport aft new moon movie ...
with amylia, met up ju and sam .... alot ppl , compared to previously..
found ourslves a spot at exit there ...
but didn't expect , we made wrong decision though ..
they stayed at belt area longer this time...
from 9.15 to 10 plus been having fake alarm by de fans ,
which really irritated me ... LOLOL. but upon see-ing them ...
the irritated feeling went off immediately ..
and i guess i went dumbfounded again when i spot them...
spot them according to who walk first , so i saw JH , JJ,HK,MH,SH
maybe hong ki was a little back den hwan ...
but my eyesight just focus on HK alot ....
his hair is still blonde , same as de hair in u're beautiful ^^
was kind of excited to see them on sat that time ...

11/12 (FRID)
went out with ju and sam ,
mass walk with them though ..
nthin much to be talk abt..
LOL

12/12 ( SAT ) BIG DAY ^^
The day i waiting for , came finally .. ?
met up mylia at 8.20..was alittle late ...
den met sam n ju at cityhall 9 .. but in de end 9.30 den we set off
to fortcanning park ? LOLOLs..quite late.. de number we had were alrd
like 450 plus ? cool eh ... we ate ju's mum fried rice
dam nice lah ..LOLOSL.. as well as mylia make de bread^^
and of coz i didn't sit at there for long , to sit on place where they are
red ants ... DIAO.. impossible...
aft that gt ppl told us , nt susposed to wait at road sidde, must go infront..
from peacefully walk to there became hot arguement btw de fans abt
de queuing arrangement...T.T went back to orginal place , but
no place sit , good ... such a good thing to experience..
went out for a walk serveral times ... but den..LOLOL...
guess gt heatstroke or whatever , wasn't feelin well ...
aft that went in de the field, oh well sit on grass T.T
hate that to the max , but for the sake of them , i did it though..
and den waited for 2 hrs , until everyone run forward again ..
and so we need run as well ?!! kana push like siaooo ..
and at these time , these bunch of fans from other country actually
dono how , just sqeeuze all the way .... pass me , and went infront of me?!
somemore , it was like 5, 6 ppl, yea is kids though ... but well ,
quite rude? just push me to the other side like nthing wrong..
ah yea , it definitely piss amylia more than me..LOLOL...
concert start , and since it was SunDown festival ...
we had the chance to see traditional dance , drawing ^^ , B boy ^^
they were great especially de drawing n B boy ..
B boy let me think of 2pm though ..LOL
next up is de solo singers .... gt mario and another one who sing
my girl ost " nv say goodbye" , omg his voice totally.. good..
den Lee Ji-soo who sing serveral songs as well ,
there was one which caught my attention most..and it was
My girl ost "Sa-rang-eun Him-deun-ga Bwa"
den T-Max came up , kim joon look stunning like how he look in BOF eh
and den follow up , MY F.T ISLAND...
they sang love sick , i hope, ft vs pri , bing bing bing and one more which sam said
gt but somehow i just couldn't rmb though..
my eyesight are of coz more on hong ki though ...
hwan , and de rest caught my attention as well ..
jonghun with his black hair -no change to me ...still as handsome as ever
jaejin with his new hairstyle look so much nicer and being more lively ^^
hwan - always focusing on his drum while singing ... cute n hyper ^^
seung hyun - unexpectedly quiet this time ...
(though he was quiet but when he sang love sick , i could feel... wonbin ..
de feelings of both being combined tgh)
hong ki , mine , which seen to be very quiet when no singing ...
while hong ki sing , his eyes move ard ...
and i was standin at middle? dono why ..
i feel , there is a second where both of our eyes met..
dots.. went dumbfounded again ... LOL
aft the encore performance by F.T ...
fireworks came up ... and it shocked hong ki ..
since i been staring at him , i saw his expression
and i guess de some fireworks did land on his arm ?
feel hurt ah, to see him been injured by firework
hope him n SH , F.t would be fine though..don tired urself.
last but nt least Brown Eye Girls... they are definitely beauties..
sexy and i seriously would fall in love in ga-in
aft BEG , everything ended ...
everyone were pushin again , to get out ...T.T
den we walked and saw many were standin at roadside waiting for cars
i tot , shld just go enjoy de fun too ... a van passed by me,
which i tot , probably is T-Max ...
and den a black car.. i stare at it while it pass by ,
is him - my hong ki ... he was inside... and i was outside the car only..
de next car - sam n mylia say is jaejin ...
though didn't spot the rest , but i guess they shared car with them..
den sam went home , while me , ju , mylia shared cab home..
today i got fate with hong ki ♥

i guess these post / update will for sure be long enough ?
from now on , i gona cut down de post lerx ,
but as a promise i won close down this blog...
next post , when would it be ? probably aft chalet bah ...

hong ki , thx for helpin me to feel comfort once again ..
and thxs for allowing me to start to dream alittle..
but don look so down ... coz its hurt to see you so ...
i know i just need time ...

I Love You ♥

2009-12-09T21:27:00.001+08:00

today i am so hurt, but u won know..

so tired...

tml is the day i am waiting..

husband comin to SP le..

love you , LEE HONG KI <3

2009-12-08T21:46:00.003+08:00

i hate plannin , so bad at itttt
dam idiot meee ...
even it hurts so much , i feel no regret ..
because it alrd too deep for me..

~~ur words hurt me~~

2009-12-06T02:35:00.009+08:00

went out today ... with F9s
to sing k ..LOLOL...
nt bad though , everytime see they sing
feel quite happy n comfortable though ..
de room is always nice for me to take a rest
LOLOLS...
off we went to orchard meet ju ...
went to ask de price for repairing my phone..
oh wa , is abt 80 plus to over hundred dollars..
de person said .. off i leave de sony shop..LOL
nt goin to waste my money again ..LOSL
wait for contract to end bah .. hais..
den went to dhoby eat n talk ..
home sweet home..

eveythin is changin ..
de promise
still exsist ?
we're here gather tgh to form de unforgettable things
memories that we would laugh while recalling back...
so the reason for abandon it , is it really worthy ???
pls think everyone .. is it really so easy to put down
many things need to hav de courage to face it off
it's de only way to let urself mentally ready to fight
for de next one ...
though is hard .....
but i trying as well ...

recently i feel extremely tired...
many things been bottled up at my heart..
i find L1 to tell her one of the pbs..
becoz she is facing de same ting as me...
glad, becoz there is always each other acc another
i don wan suffer .. so why me...
i didn't realise things can get out of control though
to the extend i hope rain will fall everyday , heavily..

比想象中更痛
你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走
都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

YesH , gt secrets kp it ..
don say if don wan ... and if u don wan to
Don let ppl know u gt secrets okay
becoz it will be so torturing for one to know
there is smthin out there yet they couldn't know
T.T

~~same goes to me~~
~~my spilt personality worsen~~

2009-12-04T01:09:00.008+08:00

when even Hong Ki couldn't help me out in this situation
i realise i went in too deep that i didn't know i am alrd %*)$%*)

chong lai mei xiang guo , hui tong dao ze ge di pu

goin out later..

will edit..

hey here , i am back , like i said .. i will edit again ..
i am nt sure this would be a long or a short post ..
i just post as much as i could ...

3 dec [ thrus ]
went sch , somehow was rotting though ...
in comp lab , we see Koizora movie , wit my cd
i tot , i would be able to control de tears while see-ing it
but despite my confidence , i still tear abit when i see
HiRO died ....
sch ended early ... quite early...
aft that, we went to punggol to play badminton
and then we talk n rot till night...

ytd - 4 dec ..
it just pass nt long ago ,
i guess all i need is to post what i could still rmb
met up sm n syafiq at interchange at 1 ..
i was late ,... becoz of the weather..
reach marina parade , des n sam were alrd there..
guess they waited quite long ? especially sam ...
off we went to hawer center .. they ate and headed to ECP
meet eliza there while waiting de bowling lane to be avaible..
wasn't able to concentrate on de bowling though ..
so really didn't bothered much abt the scores..
then off we went to seafood place to eat dinner ...
walked ahead of everyone else ... leaving de 3 behind talkin ..
n de other 2 hu tried to nt to be "lightbulb" ... T.T
lookin at the sea , my mind was relax again ...
weather turn bad while walkin , rain fall heavily..
though gt umbrella , but yea of coz i didn't use it..
reason was clear enough ... i wanted to get drench in de rain ..
de rain wash away it all for me ....
and maybe i wan to sick again .. sicko right me ..LOL
reached de place earlier than eliza n sam ...
saw their figure running into shelter nt far away from us...
volunteer to pass them umbrella..
LOL.. yes , i was drench back again ...
didn't eat , wasn't hungry at then ...
aft that off we went to pool place , while walkin ...
maybe somehow or somewhere .. things got abit complicated..
i look at sea .. and de sky ... and definitely it help me to
get so much calmer in mind ...
went pool , had fun with them ..
except de part where they say i Like " changmin " dots..
no way man ...
dono why , i felt unwanted today

tml goin oout again , wa.. outing again ..
i guess i just need to try to reach home tml as early as possible
hmmm , to avoid naggings n scoldings lerx..
been having sleepless night for quite a number of days..
been thinkin , maybe i shld do what i did last time..
take sleepin pills ...

i am not lookin foward to sch attachment nor graducation
attachment will be alone , no one to be depend on ...
graducation is de day we will be goin on our seperate way n of coz ..
grad nite ... i hate it ..and wasn't thinkin to attend it though ..
shld i ? LOLs

~~i hurt becoz of de lies~~
~~i hurt becoz i dono de truth ..~~

~~The truth may hurt but it's those lies that kill~~

i am signing off, reflect on myself now ...

hong ki,u're my only way
let me get out of de trap as soon as possible..

2009-12-02T23:52:00.005+08:00

been updating everday , but lesser things to talk now

today rnt open book test , needless to say ..
gonecase paper ... what cert , don even need to think abt it
aft tat rot in sch for 1 hr plus ...
den off to de homeee ...
from in-charge of cam became part of art & craft
2 diff groups .. gt some accident touch touch ..

i realise it didn't help me to forget anythin ....

rush to see soccer , reach there , ending le..
cool , LOLs.. ah fiq they all won though ..LOLS..
aft that rot rot rot ...
home sweet home

still F9?
LOLOLs..

~~i try my hardest just to forget everythin...~~
yet realise
i went in too deep alrd

~~i lose my way~~

2009-12-01T23:44:00.004+08:00

Today RNT theory paper... GOODBYE
i know i didn't do even average well ..
went out aft reach home ...
GO k , go arcade , go talk
saw KL and his cousin at arcade ...
LOSL...

tml is RNT open book test..
i guess don nd think , also know I CMI de..
since didn't study at all aft all ..
aft paper gona carry out our CIP
i incharge of camera..
i don dare say , i can do it well though...

while i took bus home ,
gt accident happened near sam, syafiq house
i didn't know people passed away though ?
sorry
R.I.P

~~後來　終於在眼淚中明白~~

~~find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me~~

~~I try my hardest just to forget everything~~

~~i hate myself, can i~~

2009-11-30T22:10:00.003+08:00

i realise , my heart n brain are so packed
went Vivo again today ...
that day incident fresh back to my mind
went to look at SP river alone at times ,
lookin at beautiful river ,
feel more calm ...

maybe now no river for me , de stress are back
i got no space for RNT anymore

don promise , if u won do ....

~~am i ....that untrustworthy ?~~

~~What should I do?~~
~~the only thing I can do is say...Goodbye~~

2009-11-29T23:21:00.004+08:00

went out study today ...
RNT theory
felt so stress ... there are alot to memorise..
yet i am certain i am not ready for the exam..
dono why , i feel i will flunk de exam ..
which means it might be fate ...

tml gona go sch earlier for free breakfast..
LOLOLS..
and aft exam 10.30 to 2pm gona rot to wait
for those hu goin interview for underwaterworld
good luck even though i jealous..LOL
i wan underwaterworld LAAA
aft that goin to study for RNT again ..last lap le
abacus , i think i will die..
i don even know how to read? COOl ahh..

i wan buy new phone soon ,
yea haven 2 yrs , but hp dying soon .. cnt don buy
plus .. HAIs.. must buy with own money ..
must buy one really won die so easily de..

~~don't do that anymore .~~
~~no more lies pls....~~

~~maybe de story is ending soon~~

~~had times alone at viewing hall~~
~~which i see a clearer conclusiom...~~

2009-11-29T00:58:00.006+08:00

went out today ,
put eyeliner myself finally ...

although programmes might be abit bored
but i am okay with it though...

till , i was left alone becoz of 2pm..

LOLS..

nthing to comment abt it...

just simply a hardtime for me to go through

now i know , i need to be careful ...
nt to be alone anymore...

2pm i still love u .... <3 THXS JU N GANG for the cupcake i wish one day , i would pass u cupcake which i make by myself too

~~reach home with eye liner alrd wash away by tears~~
~~~~i saw de family frame , i know what should i do~~>/s>~~
~~i will remind myself to foeget what u say~~

2009-11-28T02:47:00.002+08:00

27th nov

BUAI IKEA
work at ikea last day
first counter 13 , scanner alot pbs..tsk
adt break , counter 18 .. alot ppl as well ...
tskkk .. didn't hav shortage or access ...
of coz thxs to some customers i guess..
at least it allow me mark a smooth day to the end ..
thouugh i really don like workin there ,
thxs ikea ^^
i will make visit back as customer ^^

later goin out with clique..
had a long time figuring out all the pbs..
tskk

Gathering my sorrowful tears, the only thing I can do is say...
Goodbye

2009-11-26T22:39:00.004+08:00

tml got ikea again , last day though
3pm to 11pm ..LOLOLS..
hate work ....
sat , sun outing... ^^

The truth may hurt but it's those lies that kill

i guess my trust kana betray again ..HAHs..
thxs....

We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that
in the end we become disguised to ourselves

2009-11-25T20:48:00.003+08:00

cough probably getting bett
flu getting worsen..

LOLS

underwater world job i am nt selected as well..
was praying so hard for it before de selected list was out
in de end , still disappointment..
no jobs wan me though ...
HAHAs..

the illusion make me get away from everythin...
yet
when it return to real life ...
i realise
there are nthing out there

i wish , i knew nthing...
at least i won feel so complicated
i know i only hide myself through laughin...

I'm blasting my music, so I won't hear my thoughts

2009-11-24T21:06:00.003+08:00

these few days been quite sick , even today ...

terrible feeling now...

RNT theory SUCks.. sleep throughout de lesson...

tired ah ,

no attachment until now....

de only one i can take is one w/o interview n with ppl help

how pro i am ....

as time pass , more things came into my mind
yet ,
de heart refuse to let it gooo ...
wad shld i do now

I love rain because it hides my tears so well

2009-11-22T00:18:00.005+08:00

REGRET

went out with clique today [21nov]
1st performance , 2nd zeerah party ,
den next mive 2012............
aft that went arcade , awhile later ...
i went home first...

went to see 2012 ..but seriously
i tot it was just a movie itself till ju told me is true..
LOLOLOl..de first time when this movie out ,
i also think de same way , just actually tot i think too much

i have learn to trust all along so long ,
yet i feel a sense of _____
maybe it's nthin serious , yet couldn't help it...

3 years to 2012 ,
i wonder how would i be likeee....
will i still be lifeless or in complications like now ?

start to think i shld go back to my written diary soon ?

ppl ask
"life is short , will u go aft someone?, if u like.."
my ans: no , becoz i am scare ,is too complicating for me..

As time goes by , my bottle is fill with stones
today ,
i realised , my bottle no longer is big enough to fill de stones
today ,
i realised , nthing has change though...

there are no need for reasons , becoz tears just flows by its own

LOL , before u offline .. i wanted to tell u
i trust ppl .. just scare to kana hurt ..LOLS...
so don say i don trust u ... i trust ...

2009-11-21T00:56:00.002+08:00

lazy update ytd [19nov] , tired though ...

20 nov - Frid

had BEG test ...
alot say nthing la, easy ...
to me - is from okok to pls pass now..
what to do , sotong meant to do errors always..

follow clique to ZOO interview , but well ,
not us that are the ones who had interview but de rest
simple i guess becoz of de place we live at ?
Nt sure though ..
feel mixed feelings ahh ..LOL
i don even know if i can make it for interview..LOLS

went out with them aft that to eat ,
den mass walk around de mall ....
went to dhoby aft that, of coz arcade again ..LOL
today special , can eat alot ...
so shall nt waste this chance , eat alot alot..LOLS

gt troubles lately .. hais

especially IKEA...
giving me alot pressure just by see-ing de IKEA words T.T

As we grow older, it gets harder to just believe.
It's not that we don't want to,
but too much has happened and we can't.

i am learnin to trust ..

can you promise it won hurts to trust

이특♥현중 ♥ 홍기♥ KEY

2009-11-18T21:52:00.005+08:00

i am back , daily rountie now i guess ...
today RNT , OIT were torturing...
RNT , manage to do one nah ....
de rest really couldn't help it .....
even de one i finally succed also ppl help ...
OIT , from shld be ok to LOST ...
OIT teacher like know i stress over OIT ...
quite patient and caring towards me....
dragon n YSH also help me somehow ..

THXS EH ...

took des'medicine and try , de cough one .... really....
anyway , maybe it did work ?
didn't cough alot like usual lee....
and den this des dragon became des doc ?
dragon doctor? LOLS... THXS for de medicine though...

went out study with clique at bugis there de mac
couldn't concentrate at all .. fall asleep ..
had bad dream , of ....XIAO QIANG...T.T
BEG really alot to memorise.. .just less than 3 days...
i dono how to manage it...

i feel like quiting IKEA le...

I am nt acting dumb , i am just dumb naturely...

All I wanted to do was collapse in someone's arms and cry today...
but there wasn't anyone there to catch me though....

wad shld i do nowwwww .. haiss...

i don think i gt the right __ ______ since i am a negative thinker

LEE HONG KI IMU ... LOVE <3

2009-11-17T22:31:00.002+08:00

today RNT i did nthing ,
that is how successful i am ...
OIT gone blur ......
i wonder if tml would be de same as today .....
is as though i am a failure......
great ....

i am fine now ... ^^

why is it so torturing .....

~~sometimes~~
All I wanted to do was collapse in someone's arms and cry today...
but there wasn't anyone there to catch me

hong ki ah , i need you .....

2009-11-16T22:21:00.004+08:00

woke up at 5 today , for de sake of formal
waited at mrt with de heels ,
stand throughout de mrt ....
no joke, my foot , dam pain ...
teacher say my formal wear not bad except for hair..
T.T ..LOL.. bett than nthin ...
but i feel that de formal clothin on me look
WEIRD?LOLOl
my nails now colour super bright purple?
ju say de colour is so princess , not like me..LOL
i lazy to remove..wait till i nt lazy first

one day , i might really turn serious bad girl again ..
becoz wad will come out from my mouth would be vulgar..
T.T ...influence just like sec 3 .. hais ....

i gona wash my hands off from this
tryin not to bother .....

Why is it that no matter how much pain it endures by holding on...
the heart refuses to let go

i don wan to wake up , reality are painful

5975957945775075075047504750475047505

is it that easy aft all...

2009-11-14T22:03:00.006+08:00

go poly clinic .. change policy ..
need appointment.. so no doctor see
meet sm buy things , brought cough medicine ...

look through fb pics..some i think super nice ,
funny ... mixed feelings la..LOLS

i seriously miss de 5/2s ..all de chaos n rebels we had ^^

NT BAd right... WAHAHs..LOL

i wan frindge back ...LOLOLS

Currently addiction

my heart beating for u , lee hong ki ^^

FORMAL DRESSING TMLLLL..
dam , i seriously gona to be look funny..T.T

tell me ....

$%&$R()%*)(*%*()%*

lost

is it that easy n simple aft all

The truth may hurt but it's those lies that kills

The world is so much better when you're dreaming

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2009-11-14T00:56:00.003+08:00

(13nov)
raining heavily when reach clementi..
walk in de rain ..... got quite wet..
guys formal today , very niceee though ....
aft de guys formal , BEG intro-ing presentation
maybe i hate to do presentation infront of ppl ,
requested to be de first group ...
teacher gt angry due to smthin just went we started
and everythin we forgot ,
cool.... aft that teacher say alot abt girls presentation
our group done afew mistakes...
i know , is my fault...

went badminton aft so long , coughin all de way
but still went played , fun though .. i miss it ...
if sze hui here , would be even bett
late to meet sm , sam
went out with them , go afew places
chit chat , fool ard.... LOL..
drank with them though i am sick... T.T

only recent these few days den i got to know ....
lady gaga de just dance? LOL
they told me is very long song le.. yea i know ..
i slow... further more through out de song ..
only can rmb two words.. " just dance" that all ..T.T

cut hair , gosh it look dam urgly.... i gona get laugh at..T.T

tml nt goin work , goin clinic take my medicine..
my own medicine.. LOL.. they say mum medicine
no use for me though ? dono how true is that ,
but maybe i shld listen to them and try it...
gona waste 6 dollars on clinic again ..sianx....
74 dollarsss , when can i pay back to ikea ? LOLS

Since tml goin hav my own medicine ,
i shall really cut down on things i shld avoid le..
till i recover , would cut away all cold drinks which mean
won take ices laa... as for outside , unless is fast food ..
de rest , i hav choice , i won drink cold drinks as well
fried things will cut down slowly as well ...

wad i can tell is all these only ? LOLOL..
F9s saw that , so , if i ever want to drink cold drinks in sch ..
use this n warn me den ..LOLOLS...

just today , today .. i hate de sight of myself

since morning , watever i do , is only wrong

maybe i still couldn't trust easily though...

i become a fool becoz i dream lookin at the sky

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2009-11-12T23:13:00.003+08:00

today went to simei ite for career fair ,
filled in form and was asked to interview today straight..
becoz of my killer cough as well my blank mind ,
i guess i really screw it up..LOL
went out aft sch , go paya lebar for K
didn't sing as usual ... sam n des too ..
de rest sing , think that amylia voice really dam nice
LOLOLS....
really forgotten wad i want to blog le..LOL

LOL

edit~sis booking ticket for Chicago musical next yr ?
i see the story like not bad..LOLOL.. yohoo ..
musical again .. happy ..LOLOLS...

home safely , thxs..LOLS

right now , i am in a dam screw up condition
i don wan to be lie nor to be stress ...
de worst i could be is find myself lost in confusion ...

T.T

hate complicating things

HONGKI <3

2009-11-11T19:49:00.003+08:00

went to sch , RNT really make me tired
OIT today was some sort bett though
i tot , i was goin to die when in sch today ,
die , becoz of de killing cough ...

before my sleep , wanted to post alot things..
after my sleep , 3quarter of it was gone tgh with sleep
i cnt rmb much liao ... T.T

now my mind so complicated ahh ...
nv knowing my heart nor my thoughts

without a word, love leaves me. without a word, love tossed me away.
without a word, it comes and leave
dots, dam ==" wad to do.....................
i don wan step into de path where i been avoiding......

i'll bury all these words into my heart...........

2009-11-11T00:36:00.004+08:00

wasn't intending to update today

in de end still cameee

went out aft sch , brought more stuffss for formal needs
waste money .. in just 2 days nearly 80 dollars are gone
still left skirt ? gosh

frid badminton , kinda look forward though..
becoz can challenge ah bing ..

Mum is sick when i reached home , saw her suffering from sickness
feel super bad .... LOLS.. yea yea.. infact i am i guess...

TODAY IS DEAREST HWAN 17tH BIRTHDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HWAN AH .. LOLOLS

my first in F.t ISLAND....

may u succed in everythin u do ... LOVE YA ^^

recenly i think myself getting weirder..
everynow n then , been reminding myself...

it's hard ...even just one step forward

i'll bury these words in my heart

2009-11-09T22:26:00.006+08:00

felt as though my future is gone

that all , simple wad i feel today

brought shirt from G2000 , 19dollars aft offer

back home , kana nag ...

coz of bag ,coz of shirt ,coz of everythin

i said i am having bad cough ,
nt long ago , intend to take medicine ..
i was asked , u having cough ?
T.T

tireddd , really.....

why does it hurt ?

feel as though no one understand ...
maybe , becoz
even i don understand .....

2009-11-09T00:06:00.003+08:00

[8/11]
went to novena with des,ju,fiq find mylia n sm
gt some unhappinese moment at first.
but later solve le..LOLOLS.. well btw girls ..LOL
den walk ard , go bugis ...
met sam , off we go bugis street.. nthing to buy
den faster rush to cityhall buy bag..
somehow , is very diff from my usual type of bag
dono can get use nt... brought ear piece also
de type of ear piece where i hate to use ...T.T

tml gt BEG test, RNT test..
gone case lee..
sometimes when ppl say , ai ya u fail de la...
scare wad... i secretly think , maybe is true aft all

today get the weird dream again ,
diff ppl in de dream though
sianx , i dono wad to do ...
i scare it will happen .... no way man...

jia lat , i hate this type of situation

nt gona let myself fall into de trap

i need time , to clear my mind from complicated world..

2009-11-08T01:15:00.007+08:00

ytd[6/11] went out with usuals
rush to ecp aft de make uppp ?!,eat den rush again to ecp bowling
my bowling really sucks..LOL,den went on to kbox, was late for it
sing , de rest though ,me n sam will singing along w/o mic..LOL
sam voice nicee la , shy lor her..den what..all those who sing wan ..
i think they are good singer? to me at least it is ....
didn't hav much time to sing i guess?
nvm ah , next time go again lo,
syafiq , bring us to de kbox u say next time..LOLOL
den shop for formal things , waited for ju ..
chit chat and then home sweet home...

[7/11]
work again today, changed shift with KK
i hate workin night shift especially at sat?
reach there before 4 , tot i only early 1 hr..
in de end, realised i work at 5.30 actually..
dots , senior asked wana start early, rejected it
till 4.20 plus , senior ask again , say queue long
so agreeded to it , form terminal 8 to terminal 13
sianx , so many ppl , no time drink or eat..
got shortage 74 n extra 5 cents ..
i know u all more interested why shortage 74 right

ok la..
customer a n customer b .. den cus a de item all tgh is 74 ..
aft she went off, i scan cus b item,
den credit card .. i press 74 coz i rmb 74..i faster clear la..
but saw approval..so i tot approve den ask senior come cancel..
aft that, show cus , cus say nt their signature..
so in the end senior cancel de is de cus a de. like that eh ?
74 dollars yoo , i paying for that le.. WAHAHS

take cab home with sm , taxi uncle dam funny..

me n sm entered de cab , dono where to go

reach home , in de end realised counter key still with me ?
called sm, asked her come back , went ikea again
while taxi uncle wait, me n sm run in a stupid position ..
LOL.. coz our skinnes loose ..LOL .. only managed to return to
security , office ppl went home...
den run back to taxi ...
funny talk with uncle again

uncle:ai ya , why u all need run until so far, shld tell me ma
me:uncle u gt saw meh ...
uncle:dui la, saw u two run
me n sm: whahas
me:then uncle , u saw us running position lorrr..
me n sm:LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

first, hav to apologise to de guy , hu has a dark skin
what i say is nt intentionally ..
although u cnt hear.. i still feel bad
sorry for using such racy word.. T.T

second , sorry and THxs Sm for accompanying me to ikea
and i think while we go back to ikea n run that time
i personally had fun..LOLOL

shld thxs uncle too ? becoz he make me laugh from
bottom of my heart? really laugh out loud ..
so long leee.. me n sm are like hoping everytime finsihed work
he will be de one , that we took cab ..
definitely hav funnn talk

almost gt into accident while on de way to my home in cab
while uncle wan turn to right , a taxi drove stright?
and uncle stop de car,
den me n sm suddenly push forward out of nowhere
kana abit shocked , den uncle make jokes again..LOL

got a weird dream early in de morning..
that dream , even though is nt realli evil one
but i hope it don come true , maybe i just scare of it

onew tio swine flu le.. goshhh
hopefully , he faster recover..
stop de swine flu btw de celebrititessss
key ah , take care yahhh

FIREND ah , i know i know ..
watever i say now n before , it would be like a cycle
becoz nt just me, but others also say so ..
but den , sometimes , life is like that ?
let nature take place , what u need , is time to recover
no one is pushin you , but den don kp urself under de dark
becoz u still have one bunch of good friends beside you ..
caring for you , though it won be any replacement of ur mum's love
but we will do our best to support you tgh with ur dad..
old sentence , we would like to hear ur laugher soon worx..
ur real evil laugher ^^

at times , really hope to listen to truth ..
feel that , ard me is all lies..
how to know is truth or liessss ...
don say i am nice , caring, good..
even i myself dono hu am i...
bad friend i can say ..
while refreshin , only to find myself lost in confusion..

super tired...

lee hong ki, though u are not real one beside me
but den , for now, u are de one hu let me carry on
saranghae

the sad words are struck in my throat like a thorn

2009-11-05T22:46:00.004+08:00

schooling again , wake up late like usual
but den nv late becoz i am de first..LOL
daily routine again ,
fall down from chair becoz of sm n sam T.T
LOL.. ppl laughing .. lols..
BEG, teacher talk to us abt de work, exams, dressing
gosh, hav to buy make up
headache
headache ..

dono why , ppl so determine to put make up on me den me myself
LOLOL , sense of acheivement ?

went to amylia house with sm to do OIT project
hais , dam stress at thereee..
while thinking hard, fall asleep at there...
diaoss , dono how will our prg go ...
dotss

feel bad, sorry ...

I'm listening to my voice inside
What's on to tell me right or wrong

2009-11-04T20:31:00.003+08:00

late for meeting time today again
second time le, another 30 gone.....
total 60 dollars gone becoz of late... hais

mr.ooi took some of OIT lesson time to let
us ask LTO senior qns ..
super awkward.. coz nthin to ask them abt

aft sch went to tm with de girls , ah fiq n is...
then went eat dinner , walk ard n head home
LOLs.. quite interesting today though

having serious bad headache now..
maybe later fever?

sick le lor..

T.T

feeling terrible nowww

2009-11-03T20:57:00.004+08:00

daily routine today , nthing much to say
BEG - getting more stress each lesson
i dono , what common test , formal grooming ,
role play.. i really start to doubt my ability to handle
it , alrd on lost track for RNT n OIT..
now , starting to lose track for BEG as well
attachment ? wtheck , i don even know where to work
today day dream at BEG, nt really Day Dream , just
smthing bothering me which i dono what..T.T

thrus got test for OIT...
hais .... gona flunk it ..T.T

for more than 15 mins ago , i finished typing de
above part.. then was struck there..
dono, what else to say ... hais

jonghyun got swine flu also ..
sianx, hyun joong , kwill , jo kwon, now jonghyun
take care all pees.... KEY take care too , don wan see u sick

today probably will be de most painful moment for her
yea , thinking of u , though u are not in sch...
friend ah , stay strong ...
i believe you willl...
see u soon

today sibei tired ,fall asleep in de train
knock until ppl again , show sign of sorry ..
then look at him, realised the person ownself was sleeping
T.T ....

sam kp say i sotong today ..
diao...
i am not...
LOL

naggings again at home ,
hate it but i bear with it ...
i will ..

sometimes now i feel ,
is no longer de same as before ...
everythin change ....

Love tragic?
Boyfriend murdered own Girlfriend
den turn himself in to be found himself
if convicted , he will be hang..
hais , teenagers nowadays...

i don't know why am i like this ,
i don't know why am i like this,

who do i seen so dumb
how did i become like this

doubting myself

2009-11-02T22:10:00.004+08:00

daily rountine in sch , change place at when OIT
comp nt working for me anyway ,
use ah fiq comp , de space bar n pbs like no
ruler , header n footer make me worried somehow..
RNT change place to do , went up second floor
ask sam to go up as well,though different class with others ,
yet more comfortable , maybe becoz no teacher? LOL
THis TERM TOTALLY SUCKS BIG.. LOLLOLSS
release from sch , walk to bus stop
li yen said i step on dead worm , i was like wth ..LOL
i am sorry worm , RIP

aft sch , went visit ..
i was like abit weird ?
dono , wad shld i do ?
saw her , gave her hug as promise..
chat at there ,
she gave us a laughter as usual ..
friend , i hope u really will recover soon
BE STRONG GIRL..

hais , sianx ..

sometimes i think i am nt suitable to help ppl
couldn't do anythin except usin de mouth to console

even&$(%&($&%($&%($%&)$%
&)$%&)&%nv easy%&$()for years%&%(&(%*

Life is short yet complicating to me
hais

hais ..

2009-11-02T00:18:00.004+08:00

got attracted by this pic , dono why
maybe becoz it look like i am in dreamland ?
or maybe need sunlight in my heart

went work today , nt really middle counter
but de queue nv end , so tired
becoz of christmas , there are alot of new items in IKEA
even i knew , but didn't bothered
concentrate on de work till windy told me ,
i earlier on confirm nv scan a new item ,
coz de barcode gt pb...
i was like huh ... again ..
right , start to think alot again ..
started to think i probably nt only undercharge , but
also overcharge ..
carry the thoughts throughout work ,
finsihed work , check , no error ..
but
feeling nthin to be happy abt

tml schooling again ,
feel even more troubled ..
hate it , really ..
starting to feel displeased towards RNT cher
dono why , becoz of her finger ? dam

i shld continue blog ?

(nice pic ? just feel it nice)

Even though I was surrounded by so many people,

I felt like as if I was the loneliest person on Earth.

The rain never teaches anything, it only continues to fall

LEE HONGKI IMU

maybe u are the only reason for me to carry on
just like before ...

~~starts to doubt myself in everyway~~

2009-10-31T21:22:00.007+08:00

just now went to use comp and try to do de OIT reports
results , don even need to think , definitely was a failed attempt
i dono , did save what i do , but maybe is just a waste of time..

Yunho drama is ending early due to ratings
don understand , why must end it a few eps early just
becoz of de ratings .. pointless ...
news said , yunho and changmin maybe join JAECHUNSU
for de law suit .. i am waiting for the day , always ..
and of coz i am more than happy to clarify if it is true.. lols

time is de main problem for JAy new stated ,
JAY contract with JYP is not cancel
so it means jay definitely will be back just de time matters
fans , let wait for jay's return , support 2pm <3

Boom went in army for serve the country le
then korea will lose a comedian for 2 yrs now ?
gosh , he is funny guy .. teukie went to send him off..
and silly him la , he cried ..
LOL don cry K ,
TEUK .. LOVE♥

think right now i am more fond of park bom den dara le..LOL

FRIEND, Are u feeling bett today
i am sorry i still couldn't help u out much aft ytd talk
i feel worry for u , anythin do talk to me
i could be listening hears for you

i envious u, ju, really u gt smthin i lack of..
if i could hav that ,maybe i can do things i wan do for long watever it is ,
i hope de talk would come out for u all well
of coz for us too , no misunderstanding..

somehow F9s , okay to be exact de few of u ..
i like u all spamming my tagboard .. LOLOLs..
pls do so more often..LOL

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The feelings and desires that keep piling are unexpectedly not fading.
Even though time has passed, the clouds won't clear and the tears from the sky still won't stop falling.

i hate de feelings , it came back to me aft so long
i don wan it to happen
i am fine, don wry me, don care too much for me
i will scare

somehow , lost in own thoughts

2009-10-31T00:48:00.008+08:00

ytd 29/10 schooling as usual
alright RNT n OIT killing me
sort of "cry" in RNT lesson
give up on de qns
went home, really tired le ..
went sleep , slept for 16 hrs .
from 6 plus to today 10 plus 11 ..
WAaa..

30/10
went out with usuals today
alright throughout was havin fun as usual

FRIEND , i know now u are feelin terrible
i know i couldn't help out
yet i know u would be strong to face this
beocz u are strong ,i will too ..
pls , friend , stay strong

i wan to hear ur laughter soon

falling sick ...

feel terrible with de fact i cnt do anythin

and de stupid troubles make me tired

without a word, tears fall. without a word, my heart breaks down

lee hong ki IMU

2009-10-28T22:31:00.007+08:00

aft sch , went to marina with .....
sm, sam, amylia, ju, ah fiq...
was fooling ard as usual on the way there
chat and walk ard marina , cityhall

realised i am on the losing control track of RNT n OIT
even BEG .. LFD Project..
everytime came to think of that , i just hope i can
leave where i am to a peaceful place where nobody can find me

getting tired abt things beside me

i don dare to think of anythin other than sch now
becoz de sch is enough to drag me to another side of me

DOUBLE S COMEBACK IS GREAT
i LOVE THEM
esp
♥MY HYUN JOONG♥

F.T ISLAND TRIPLE IS ALSO GREAT
though de singer is not hongki
but de song touch my heart as well

maybe i really lack of ♥

though it look stupid

but

♥LEE HONG KI i only can trust u with my life

SARANGHAE SS501

right, only can_____myself with this
even i don understand myself what's the point..

2009-10-27T23:00:00.003+08:00

THERE ARE TOO MUCH PRESSURES

though is nthing compare to ppl outside

but i couldn't help it ..

i felt very stress up

really

MY HEART BREAK DOWN W/O ANY WORDS

2009-10-27T20:09:00.007+08:00

overslept today , wake up when saw amylia mess
shocked , told them to come my house here
there we went to sch , by takin up a taxi

had NAFFA ,
all stations almost want my life..
especially the superrrrrr torturing 2.4
thxs to it , really nt feeling well ..
run n walk with amylia
saw des , de way he run ...
made me burst out laughin only
finished de NAFFA , felt relieved finally
guess i will failed only 2.4 ? sianx lor, need run again ?
aft running , went back hall to rest
w.o realising , de hall left the 9 of us plus sze hui again
LOLOLS
went to canteen and rott for 2 hrs ..
den off we went for BEG lesson
cher say need learn make up all these ,
i tot " OH my GOD "
LOLs..

aft sch , went tm with sm, amylia, sam , ju
ju went find present , and we went walk ard ..
de details , gosh .. i forgotten ..LOLOL

cut my skin while helpin eliza open up her bottle
dots , skin peel le still didn't managed to open up
LOLS... sadded

it still hurts
but den i guess , time will heal everythin

sam they all help me buy f.t island n other artist de concert tic
yesh , dam happy .. to see my hongki again ..
he miss me? i guess so .. LOLOLs..
<3
forgot what else i wan talk abt lee ..

dots i miss tagboard to be MSN seh

friends flood my tagboard can ..

LOL but no spamming

brought ring today , LOL.. ^^

becoz i am getting tired ...

hongki ah , i need you by my side , encouraging me to move on

2009-10-26T20:51:00.005+08:00

today nv go sch , went to loyang sec for O lvl eng
wear checked , skinnes ... thinking more presentable
in case would be cold ...

went with jing , went to de classroom , my seats wasn't there
really, rush to check where is my exam venue..
and de fact is i am at de hall with loyang secs students
why , why me.. hall w/o aircon ,
a torture to me ..
start to feel giddy , headache ... n serious burning hot
couldn't concentrate at all
but den jing class gt aircon ... envious
or is it only unlucky things happen to me ?
paper 1 ended and i guess i just flunk my letter writing
break awhile , gen came find me ..
so me, jing, gen talk abit ..
aft that jing, gen went back to their class..
left me alone , facing the stuffy hall
paper 2 started , so did de fans were switch on..
papers started to fly ard ..
while drinking water , a paper flew to my table..
i caught it..LOL.. abit happy , i save it ..LOL
compre really spend my ages to read it..
finsihed still
overall -IDK
i don wan think too ,
the higher i hope , de more disappoint i could get
experience once is enough ..

home now , yet feelin sick now

finally a real post isn't it ?

gtg le ,
tml goin sch ,
naffa ...
hopefully don failed so many stations

i think this is first time tellin my first pb
gosh , i dono is it right..
but i guess is fair to do so ..

i am controling

without a word, tears fall. without a word, my heart breaks down

2009-10-26T00:59:00.002+08:00

work today , no shortage
maybe is just luck ...
i still don like de feeling there

COMPLICATED

like the fever before, maybe all i need to do is hurt for awhile

One day just for only one day

If I can get to see you

The words I couldn’t say that was deep inside my heart

without a word, tears fall. without a word, my heart breaks down

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~~why am i doin this~~

2009-10-24T23:52:00.004+08:00

i should have done that.

i should have ignored it.

like something i couldn't see

like the fever before, maybe all i need to do is hurt for awhile.

without a word, tears fall. without a word, my heart breaks down.

sings my heart out

2009-10-24T02:04:00.003+08:00

went out with usuals today
went to catch a movie - 500 days of summur
de movie was okay just that not my taste...LOL
while tryin to understand it , beside me , alrd gt one
dozing off..LOL.. des slept for nearly 1 hr i guesss..
and he affected me to hav de sleepy mood ..LOL
den went arcade to slack as per usual
aft that went to marina for arcade and bowling..
we had funs there anyway ..
later go met aminah their group
went to pool and play ..
aft that went home seperately..LOL

Mon i got eng o lvl written exams
had no -preparations for it ...
sianx..

today i am filled with complications..
shocked at de emotions i had ...
dono since when i started to think that way
the worst i could think of...
decided to gave me some silent moment to think and to relax
but i am fine ... don worry ...

i am currently 3/4 addicted to this song

"WithOut a Word"

i should have run away.
i hould have acted like i didn't hear it.
like something i couldn't hear.
I shouldn't have listened to love at all.

말 도 없 이 왔 다 가 말 도 없 이 떠 나 는
지 나 간 열 병 처 럼 잠 시 아 프 면 되 나 봐 자 꾸 흉 터 만 남 게 되 니 까

wish for solution to escape from dream
♥

2009-10-19T21:23:00.007+08:00

I AM BACK FROM HAINAN !

15oct
wake up early to meet sm go budget terminal
mum came tgh to send me off as well ..
reach there , saw the teachers and then went to eat mac
slowly more ppl came , den went to check luggage weight
LOL.. awhile later mum went home .. left me n friends
slack ard , tookt tickets , den slack more..
headed to de plane..
different from singapore airlines, we had to climb de stairs
but then , new experience ah , nvm ..LOL
reach there , took luggage then went to hotel to eat
on the bus , de ground was like so unbalance..
de bus was up n down , up n down .. DOTS..
dinner nthing much i like since all veggies...
den back to hotel , welll scenery nt bad.. can see beautiful bridge
met up gang go walk opposite road..
dots, de zebra crossing, cnt trust.. no use de..
and then bath le , went to de guys room ton ..LOL
a day goneee..

~~edit with pic~~

<3 TG

16oct
we continue our sight see-ing on de second day
before that, went to restuarant at hotel we stayin for breakfast
nthing much to eat again..sianx..
den continue walk alot..
cnt rmb alot of de places we went to ..
but during the bus journey , de road is still as jumpy as ever..
watever it is , still slept.. LOL
then went to different hotel for second day
a smaller one this time..
pack luggage den again back to de guys room and wonder..
slack, play games ... talk abt ghost stories all these..
slowly , everyone suggest bett sleep..
no place for me n my friend
in de end , both of us sleep in sofa
den one hr later or so, eliza wake up den went off ..
aft she left, i went off too .. my mind wasn't in good mindset
went out wanted to find her.. in de end ,
saw nthing except for myself at de lift there
in de end , walk in rocket speed to de room again
lucky nv lock...

17oct
serious , cnt rmb things what we do there ...
sight seeing as usual .... den eat
all the meals at there , serious eat dam little
all veggie de..LOL
den back to guys group , talk n play ...

~~edit with pic~~

<3 the usuals ^^

18oct
wake up , eat le ..took bus to de tour guide last time uni
went to hav exchange ideas of tourism stuff with students there
serious i was super tired aft tonning so many nights
wan sleep but cnt, wan close eyes but cnt
LOLS.. den continue sight see-ing a little..
shop ..den off on de plane back to singapore
the plane we took back is much more bett man..LOL
but on de way back gt bad flu ..
quite sick
reach singapore, meet sis...
she wanted to eat popyes .. so we went to terminal 3 then
terminal 1.. den like walkin all de way
tired lor...
back home , bath , unpack le ..
chiong you're beautiful ep 3 n 4
hex hex..
LOL
HONGKI AHHH

~~edit with pic~~

With students from hainan UNI

19oct
went to sch for lesson
teacher allow us to go late
went room and den rush to finsihed assignment
r n t learn new stuff..
felt totally lost..
den i really break down..
yea ... kind of lost of emotions i guess..LOL
i wish i still at hainan ,
avoid all wars and arguement at home...
all de stress from sch
is pressuring me

tml schooling again
sians

pic with de usual girls <3

pic with de 2 usual guys with us - SARANGHAE

Now de final usual 10s including MS JU hu is nt inside ^^

suddenly, it jump randomly
but i know , is nthin

heart jump becoz of u , u know
lee hongki

2009-10-15T00:03:00.002+08:00

13oct
went to sch as usual in the morning ..
kind of tiring to wake up early 5 plus in morning
the worst lesson end at 5pm and
de lesson to me is totally unbearable ...
and i couldn't understand at all
rush off to meet jing, they all
wc nv come ..
went to see deadly tsunami korean movie
totally touching n sad
seriously , my eyes gt swollen right aft the movie
same goes to jing.LOL
went bowling, maybe becoz this is second time
so nt so afraid anymore..LOL
sm came to join us
had fun with them ...
me, sm,hock hao , ys went home last
went seperate ways with them..LOL
sm tot i haven board bus , went to contact ah hock
LOL.. den he say if i nv ans any sms , he will alight ..LOL
lucky he nv , or else, i feel guilty only nah
wa.. only that heartless ys don care abt me..LOL

14oct
went sch as usual
today lesson was so rushing for me...
especially de Office one...
totally lost when she taught new things
she went throught with a rocket speed and
expect me to follow up with her speed..
dots...
finally pack finsihed my luggage
i guess it will overweight
need pay extra?
don care la

guys , i hope at there can see anythin to buy for u all
but don put high hopes hor...LOLOL

ah fiq nt going to bring laptop to hainan le
yea , that is acrually what normal ppl do
just that will miss my hongki drama terribly..LOL
wonder what would we be doin then in replace of dramas
few hrs to be ready at hainan ,
nt sure of that i feel for this trip
troubled ? dono why , it just seen to be so ..

went to listen to hongki drama songs
feel more comfortable in emotions n feelings
somehow , his voice is just like my medicine..
hongki <3

LEE HONGKI

de cure of my sickness

GTG LE, SEE YA GUYS ON 19 OCT ^^

promise

2009-10-11T23:14:00.009+08:00

last day of work before sch start
work at counter 25 , second last counter..
tot would be smthing good.. great ...
nt at all
counter sucks , scannin gt pbs , machine jam
and what's more are customers actually kp coming to
my stupid sucky counter...
make me rush , alright.. just same as what i think
gt shortage in money ..
nearly 100 i guess
well , don care lee

not changing money for china trip
using my sis pass me de money
more than enough to meee
didn't wan to use his money at first ,
but den , think positive ..
can save my money for bank
try to slow down de rate of money decreasing in my bank

CHINGU / FRIENDS
i won be in singapore from 15 oct to 18 oct ahh

end ~~

went home , check daily news

saw news say ss501 official album will be releasing on 22 oct
well ,hopefully this time ... been dragging for dono how
mani months le siaaa ...

donghae n hyun joong actually know each other ?
saw pictures of them hangin ard with each other
is at airport where they talk n eat..
but den i wonder , how they know each other
or i shld say got so close la , through hu ?? LOL
somehow i hope teuk n joong also know each other close
but i guess teuk closer to kyu jong or baby?
LOL.. happy for my 2 husbands knowing each other so close..LOL

finally go and see 2pm performance at dream concert
was thinking don see , since no jay inside
in de end, still went for it..
for ♥khun , for ♥woo young

2PM again & again

2PM i hate you

i saw de performance , feel mixed emotions
when see-ing they leave a empty spot for JAy and
when i hear jay voice singing since no one replace his part
fans say , taec called out jay name at de ending
some fans say no ..he just say thx you
some fans say junho raise his hand up and point 7 ..
some fans say is usual for him
gt one thing all fans can confirm , 2pm nv forgot abt jay
they are thinkin of him while performing
upon hearing that,
de desire for jay's return to me increases ..
i wan PARK JAY BEOM BACK ...
he will but when is it..

2PM !

PARK JAY BEOM !
PARK JAY BEOM!

miss you jay park ..

2PM ♥

so stress , hainan is time for me to relax

2009-10-10T20:21:00.007+08:00

here i come again , seriously i am bored to max

while workin at ikea today , i feel freakin sleepy ..
eyes were like closing once no ppl or too many ppl ..
T.T
alot of heavy items today , my hand still in great pain since ytd
they don help at all , okay , most of them rather ...
worst , still run de trolley over my feet ...
dots T.T
went to de fire engine training with chinhwee n one newcomer
ah , 2 guys hu i don even know .. pro ..
but okay uh , isn't that jia lat after all ...
de person train we 3 only.. like so little..LOLS ..
back to work , and routine just come back..sianx...

want to buy shoe at somewhere
nt going to wear the shoe i step on snail again..
i know , gona tio naggin again , waste money
but is de feelin that affect me ...

tml is de last day of work before i leaving for hainan
tues i would be askin sm to replace me ...
so that can meet up wit gang

comin monday gona go back to sch since sch reopen
gona wake up early liao .T.T
goin to dhoby aft that, mates doin nails ...
den goin buy sweets n tibits for hainan trip ..
and den last station courts.. gona buy batt for camera
with my own money again T.T

i wan do de compo syafiq gave me ...
but somethin is stopping me
yea, is lazyness ...
and
sleepyness ..T.T

EDIT
before ending , since i see le MS JING de post right
i wan to reply back , but somehow ..LOL
ur tagboard.. cnt tahan..LO
nthin much to say actually.. rmb i got told u alot times
u need contact us auto instead of us doin it ?
LOL... actually u are improving ahh .. LOL.. maybe i guess
for wei ching n leen , u did right..LOL
gt even more closer now..LOLS ..
but den right, u still don auto sms me .. LOL
and now ,LOL ,, i also won kp contacting you le,,revenge ah *wink*
nt becoz of i don wan la, is busy..LOL
do contact through something laa ..LOL ..
gt anythin unhapppy don kp inside urself la ..LOL
just do like last time, complaint to me lor..LOLs
take care n see you on tues

<3

end~

i finsihed my fair lady.. well , well , is a tempting drama afterall
just that couldn't feel de temption after started on you're beautiful
aft fair lady , next week , IRIS would be airing
wa, i wan see that too .. kinda interesting .. bonus gt TOP..LOL

two eps of you're beautiful alrd make me cnt wait anymore..

other than honggie n geun suk , jung yonghwa from C.N blue
is getting my attention le.. LOLS ...
so gentleman look in de show.. attracting
shin hye is good in this show , prefer her short hair ..
look great on her ...

saw pics from 2pm forum
2pm perform during de dram concert ..
6 of them , they carry on with their activities..
although 2pm still continue , everyone know
in de heart , there is still one more ppl
don worry , i believe jay will be back ...
^^
saranghae jay , saranghae 2pm

u know i miss u ... ♥

and of coz them

i wan u all by my side

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2009-10-09T00:46:00.004+08:00

today [8/10] went out with mates again
early in de mornin meet syafiq , sm, sam at pasir ris
syafiq de earliest , sam de last one T.T
on de bus to there, it was rainin...
first one to reach marina is des , last one - Ju
went off to ECP .. was raining abit ...
syafiq told us zeerah coming , so while waiting for her
took pics .. ... then sm n ju went fetch her when zeerah lost
aft zeerah ate , all of us went to bowling
strongly rejected to play , but den was forced to aft that..
somemore first one to go , fall down right away aft de first ball goes
T.T den aft that sm guide me through bit by bit..
well , quite fun though
den aft bowling took bus to ghoby , went to play pool again
zeerah went off first...
of coz didn't play pool again ...
LOLs..
went to plaza sing mac to eat aft that
chat abit before we went home seperately ..

tml gt work at ikea
didn't hav de mood to work ..
isn't a easy job afterall .. T.T
is like draggin myself to ikea only..

kangin won be participating in this yr dream concert
neither do dbsk or 2pm ..T.T
guess LSM don allow kangin to participate ?
nt surprising if he did that..

My Loves aka My Dream ♥

LEE TEUK, LEE HONGKI ,KIM HYUN JOONG, KEY

♥ My LIFE equal LHK

LEE HONG KI ♥

fate to be husband ^^

*praying hard for a change in me*

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2009-10-07T00:52:00.004+08:00

went out with jing and wei ching aka YL today[6oct]
long time mv met up le..
finally met up , as usual waited for wc .. LOL
then we went walk ard buy things ,
meanwhile we catch up de times since long we met..
realised they are having fun along .. LOL
went to jing house with mac..
tell them phobia story..LOL.. of coz , from my mouth..
it would nv be scary though..LOLS..
went to my house, wc teach me how to cut ringtone..LOL
den went to meet sam at giant..
walk there from wc house.. tired T.T
kana pull by sam teo to ikeaaa .. don wan see the place though
then walk ardd, touring wc abt ikea..LOLS ..
den brought hotdog to eat..
while eating, feel like puking.. but finsihed it still ..
den off to giant again and then home...

gt called from ikea today ...
was really in a daze for a long while ..
i dono why ...
maybe i do afterall ...

"EMOTIONAL"

I don't need a heartache

And crushes can be so fake

But sooner than you know it

They turn your world around

tml gona go out buy coke i guess..
maybe ..or thrus go 7-11 still thinkin

is 7oct now ..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISSY ! 22TH LE ...

very soon , you are beautiful gona be air..
waiting with all hearts ^^

saw the soundtrack of the show
wonbin gona sing for the show too ..
omg, i miss his voice.. it been sooo longggg
i guess fans will be delighted n f.t also will be happy
^^

i don wan to think that way though..

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2009-10-05T00:15:00.006+08:00

ytd --- 4oct

went to work
on de way , feelin headache , bad headache i mean
don care, still went work ...
start my counter.. dam , middle counter..
hate it man ...
ppl come n come .. no endin queue ..
den started to feel giddy , went toilet for 2 times..
was suspose to work to closin ard 11.15
in de end i went back at 10 pm ..
cnt tahan ...
on de way out , walk fast
in de end i step on smthin ..... snail
i was liek wth , NOOOOo ..
feel dam disgusted T.T

feel bett now, after medicine ..

goin sleep soon

tml need work.. don look forward to it though

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2009-10-03T01:56:00.004+08:00

wanted to blog when my next off actually ,
but decided to come update earlier first...

ytd , 2/10 , which just pass nt long ago
went out with de usuals..
to usual places of coz ...
went to phobia , far east eat.. dhoby arcade n pool
advance celebrate amylia birthday ...
this time , i can update a pic of our usuals
with de fact of sch usuals -yen ,eliza join us , and syafiq
who had been willing to come out with us now ...
our group number became bigger.. good thing ??

ppl from pics -------
syafiq , des,sam, mh,yen,sm
eliza , ju , amylia ...... ^^

hope that amylia enjoy the day somehow n like de present

end ~~~~~

F.t island , hwan , jaejin, jonghun goin triple for album
somehow similar to ss501.. LOLS..ahahas..
and both triple album don hav my husband inside T.T

<3hwan , jaejin, jonghun

went to suju forum..
i tot i shld go see earlier...
teukie had a high fever on 28 sept while shootin for show
was sent to hospital aft that..
and de fact i dono , i really feel baddd ..
super badd ...

RIGHT now 3 OCT

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY CHERYLLLLLL

happy advance birthday amylia ^^

what if cnt cope ...

what if really fall in love in the dream

i think i treating it to be realll

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2009-10-01T11:42:00.004+08:00

wana update somethin on blog , but kinda difficult
to start off still ... unsure of what am i susposed to blog

today is release of result of my ite exams
CTR-A
EFC-B
ITI-C
DTG-B

TOTAL GPA : 3.0

i know i shld be feelin happy n relieve
but nt feelin it though
maybe there is relief where i ownself don realise..
yea , quite calm afterall ..
no special mood...

strange girl

currently addicted to

USUAL 5

* KIM HYUN JOONG
*LEE HONGKI
*LEE TEUK
*KEY
*DONGHAE

and den follow by

*PARK HAEJIN

this guy caught my attention when he make debut appearance in acting
then he came on family outing as pernament cast
his weakness caught my attention again
went back to see east of eden becoz of him ..

FEW SHOWS on my ADDICTING LIST

*My Fair Lady
*Heading to the Ground
*Paradise Meadow
*Family Outing
*Heaven Postman
*You're Beautiful

You're beautiful is tempting as much as fair lady
gosh , hongieeee act in drama aft so long

Jang Geun Suk and HongKi
ppl say they look like twins
maybe becoz of make up ??
love jang geun suk too ,
he in baby and me .. dam cute..LOLS

saranghae <3>

2009-09-29T22:37:00.003+08:00

wana update abt things.. but struck ..
T.T
forgotten what i wan to blog afterall ..
maybe just update what i rmb i guess

well went solo for quite long
didn't do well except for that particular 2 days
tml gt work..sianx

went out with kim today ..
watch fame .. ok , nt that bad afterall ..
rmb, rmb, rmb, rmb ny nameeee..ahahs
but step up still seen bett to mee
met sam aft that , go hmv ... nthing
den went cityhall meet sm , kim went home first
go eat den walk walk walk ...
brought things

end ~~~

now where shld i start off first

ok currently under temptation of
My Fair Lady and Park Haejin shii ..
why i dono... fair lady alrd see finished latest ep lee
waiting for ep 13 n 14 .. faster come out man

while waiting for fair lady , went to see east of eden

this show consist of all famous actors n actress..
last yr went to see before..becoz of song seung hun
but then stop aft 7 eps.. now due to haejin influence
went to see de rest , 56 eps, finsihed it in 3 days ..yohooo
some think haejin is old ahh , but nt really laa..
just older den joong one yr nahhh

♥ Park Hae Jin & Han Ji Hye ♥

matching isn't it , wishes they two can be tgh sometimes
he is funny in character though , shld see family outing
successor of chun hee ^^

next , f.t island went to pillipines or wad nt long ago
there got hai siaooooo ... korea there de ppl lost
communication with f.t .. super dangerous laa..
but lucky f.t island came back safelyy

jay left for america since long..
read article.. antis did not give break to jay..
they still spam jay church ..
what the heckk .. nthing bett to do ??
multi -task ah u all , attack so many artists ..
T.T

currently goin to see MBC 2008 awards soon
gt east of eden actors in there

gosh , alot shows on my mind

- My fair lady
-heading to the ground
-you' re beautiful
-family outing
-rumour seven princesses

anymore ? cnt rmb lee

i hope u know my existence sometimes

2009-09-25T00:56:00.002+08:00

23/9

went out with clementi usuals finally
aft so long ........ aft holidays start..
this time li yen n syafiq join uss.s..
alot ppls ..^^ happyyyy ..
have a great time though ..
watch urgly truth with them , pool , arcadeee ^^

front - shi min, amylia , ju , li yen ..
with sam hu went to work n de two weirdo guys

24/9
just pass nt long
went out with kim to cineleisure
wanted to see fame but no slot
watch urgly truth again..LOLOL
then off to eat ramen ...
rush off aft receiving call from sm to ask if can go work
feel bad to kim , though she said nvm
want to celebrate her birthday more...

25/9
today , later work at noon to night..
goshhh ... hope won make mistakes

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY KIM aka MRS KWON
let's go have a drink next time tgh ^^

2009-09-23T01:18:00.004+08:00

TODAY my 4th HuSBAND BIRTHDAY

his official 18th /19th .....
Increasing popular group SHinee
KIM KIBUM - KEY

love , u are finally 18th ..same age as me .. <3
been waiting for long i guess onew they all will give u a memorable b'day party
and also fans wishing u every min , every sec i am too ....
love , waiting to see u soon ..

happy birthday 18th/19th KEY !

the 4ever almighty key ^^

♥ KEY

2009-09-23T00:19:00.004+08:00

22/9

solo for 2nd day , still did mistakess..

shi min waited for me straight 4hrs
return de hrs when i wait for her..
LOL.. touched..
thxful of thattt ..

wed n thrus off..
both days goin out..
time to release myself from stress

end ~~~

woo young is frustrated with hottest
dearest woo young..
always tot hottest are great , becoz they stan d by jay side
but don give too much pressure to JYP n 2pm ..
becoz they misses jay more than we , fans doo
if 2pm members have to suffer all these ,
doubt jay will be any happier

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i wish for that

2009-09-21T00:04:00.005+08:00

monday --- 20/9/09

work solo today

expected, nthing goes well ...
aft work , went home at 8 plus to bustop
aft kana reminded by seniors again n again..
realised nv return cashier card ,
shocked...
faster rush back again ..
no one at cashier yet, return and headed home
reach home at 9 plus..

de feelings are complicated while on the way home..

upon reaching home , feel bett ..
sam offline mess n f.o with hyun joong and seung ri
make me forget all de worries n troubles i having at that time

now there is nthing do ,
de feelins are backkk

i hate to see de kana irritated faces...

just think only cause troubles than anythin ...

sometimes it does nt lies on trusting , but the feelins

getting tired alrd. ......
o lvl written exams comin in few weeks' time..
what did i do to prepare for it... nthing ...
best...... T.T

ss501 gona hav their comeback at end sept
hope hyun joong had rest enough for that
f.t gona hav their jap album too ...
happy for both ^^

^(^(*^(*&)(*%&(&(&

i wish for u(s) to be here with me

a leaning shoulder for me

2009-09-18T02:04:00.003+08:00

is either they lie , or they really believe in me more than i do..

i hope kangin case will end soon ,
first - too many unpleasant things happen
second - don wish suju will get affected by this

2pm will continue their activities soon ...

park jayboem,
can't believe it ..
but i miss ur appearanceee.....

2pm ♥

i dono , if i still can hold on to it

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2009-09-15T18:21:00.004+08:00

morning went mute suddenly..
quite worry , went to work still
gt senior buddy with me ..
3 hrs went to tour ikea , in n out office
teach me how to function de cashier
nt really everythin i am clear..
but i guess i am doin fineee ..

tml , de day aft tml , de day aft tml tml ..
all night shiftttt.. oh myyy..
but there is taxi right. .LOLOLs .
good ^^

went to see f.t Hangul island season 1 ep 24
f.t in jap promoting soyogi album
they sing song in HMV there

"A Song For You"
think that wonbin sing in jap is niceeeee
won bin sang this
"we have come here in one piece chasing after a dream"
it caught my attention ... LOL

i miss you wonbin ..
wan to see ur debut stage soon ^^

hyun joong discharged from hospital leerrr
hopefully he is okay , n getting enough rest

hwang bo met with accident
arghh .. so qiao .. shilang just discharged only lehx
hope no big injury

freaking heartbreak see-ing this last performance with jay
did u all notice how nervous is jay n how sad 2pm is
goshhh ... wad a great bunch of netizens

alot ppl had said the one who dig out jay past
is a shinee fangirl .. surprise...
suprise not as in de girl would go do such things.
well alot of netizens do that ..
but de girl didn't realise how close is
2pm and shinee ?? maybe nt close to de extend of sm seniors
but they hav good friendship ,
friendly compeition btw friends , why make it until so bad
americans don care abt criticism ...
so when jay arrived in korean , i bet he hadn't get used to korea life
shldn't hav give him to change ????
den i guess if u or who bett DON go america
u won be able to stand it , even a mintue
or maybe jay's fans will be waiting for u at airport??
becoz of that few sentences , jay left 2pm
2pm recently seen so souless .... where is 2pm !!

i miss jay park

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2009-09-12T21:35:00.003+08:00

Here i am again ...
came here to blog incase de details will be
lesser n lesser with my this memory condition..

ytd went out with usuals ...
me , sam, des, ju, amylia .. went to see G-forceee ...
before movie , went to arcade .. and play usual things
AHAHs .. i like de movie -- it is nice n funny after all
den went slack ard , tot of waiting for sm , julia they all ..
however, they did not came to meet us ...
oh eh .. so we went to quite a few placess..
eat pasta mania again , this time totally not in mood to eat
reason ?? --- i having super bad headache n feelin like puking
LOL .. i did afterall .. 3 times in totalll ...
pasta mania money ... OHOH... buai buaiiii ..
drink also cnt finished..
only drink less than 6 mouth den pass to de usual des to finsihed up
told him , faster drink , i wan de icee ..
less than 5 mins ... he pass me de cup with .... only ice inside
omggg.. proooooo ...
still feelin nt ok , they did look out for me ..LOLS..
especially ju , des hu is my "parents" ..lols
both of them ask me buy medicine , sayin they will pay ..
but of coz in de end i pay myself..LOLOL
then went to harbour front ..
motive ?? unsureee .. but we brought aminah present..
li yen oneee.. LOLOL.. one word-- harddd
den went home , sam went seperate way ..
try to coax amylia in de train ..she look so dulllll ...

today is crazy khai birthday ..
though nv been close before ..
still ... HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYY

stay at home today , rest well before i goin to faint really..
then i stay at home , from morning i woke up
chiong vampire knight S1 n 2 animation till late noon...
waahhas.. 26 eps worx ... pro right.. my addiction comin back soon
i wan see de continuing comics of vampire knight..
tell me where to seeeeeee ............

tml aminah birthday
happy advance birthday yahhhh

i wan
ZANAME PROTECTION <3
ZERO LOVE <3

actually goin crazy over animation again >??

first is cloud , now is kaname n zero ..

how i wish zero n yuki are tgh

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the hestitation are complicating me

2009-09-10T23:24:00.002+08:00

hi pees , blog in de process of dying ..
decided to blog today instead of tml

exams finally finsihed ....
finally , actually i am quite worry for all my subs
becoz it either i been too careless with de questions
or i really found it difficult...
learn to not to expect so much
o level english written paper comin in octtt ..
what to dooo nowww..
more jia latt ..
hopefully eng can make it this time..
been thinkning , if i am lucky ...
nitec course results okok , o lvl eng okok
where shld i move on tooo ..
when starting to feel use to de mates i having nowww
sianxxx ...

went to ikea today , took shuttle bus there
ask ikea for job vancany ...
susprisingly , i was accepted and i am starting work
on tuesss as a cashier.. OMG
first time being cashier ...
seriously i hate being cashier ... de responsibility is not light
money ehhh .. haixxxx ..
for the sake of money , i hav to do sooo stilll ...
took shuttle bus home ...
been waiting for de bus likeeee what the heck..
is de shuttle bus to PR here nttt ...
seriously , i am worry abt the stress of being cashier there
wheather i can make it not , is definitely a pb..
i don wan to lost money ehhh
give me luck , lovess...

tml goin out de usual with julia, li yen...
a good day ???? yea.. probably...

dono wad to say le...

was quite pissed off as well as upset upon de
jaybom left 2pm ...
it just make me refresh on de news of won bin leavinf f.t
becoz of korean netizens...
how did they grew up with these type of skills of
finding ppl fault in de present n PAST TIME
jay was from american , rebellious guy when he was still a
trainee... a guy from american who do not hav any close friends
in korea ... who do they expect him to speak his pb too
don understand , jealous becoz 2pm gaining popularitiy ???
dotsss ..... don u feel gulity forcing a man who had knew his
mistake n alrd tryin so hard to succeed further to quit now ...
can imagine how endless do those hardcore fans crieddd
jay must be feelin so sorry to fans, members n his mum
now i think korean netizens shldn't pick on jay or 2pm anymore
in either way , they definitely shld't
jay now is a normal human with no status , jay no longer in 2pm
so no more link = no spamming on 2pm
watever it is , 2pm is still 2pm, 7 tgh as one.. de hearts say so ..

they shld bomb snsd ... why don they ....

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2009-09-02T00:10:00.003+08:00

Monday - 2 sept 09

teachers' day today ..
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to every teacher hu taught me
especially secondary one i guess
becoz u teachers teach me alot seriously..
even though i still disappoint u all , comin into ITE..
went to clementi for first half way ..
then rush back to secondary sch aft bathing
first time feel soooo nervous goin back sch
dono why ....
pass them de cookies we bakeee ,
i saw mr.ng ..specially happy ...
he message me say he like de cookies though is hard
feel relieved really..

den went out with N678 ppls ...
we watch proposal .. oh well , is kinda funny ..
and super nice ehhhhh ..LOLs..
de male leaddd..ahahas !
den went to buddy dono wad eatt ...
me and hock went to buy a cake for leen(2/9) n wc(9/9)
though is kinda expected , they did nt failed to let us feel
our effort were wasteddd ...
chat alot with themmmm .. been so long isn't it...

LEEN♥ WEI CHING aka YUAN LING

today is eileen offical birthdayyy
just wished her nt longggg , through msn n sms ...
EILEEN TEO
hope u have a wonderful celebration laterrrr
be happy always
see u soon ^^

Tues - 1/9
1/9 just passed nt longgg...
went out study with sam, sm , des, amylia today
we study for 2 hrs llike that..
den started to crap arddd ...
went to wsss ... arcadeeee ... ppl playing drums again
it always like thattt ... ppl queuing for drums make me
feel more irritateddd and siannnn ..LOL
went to ehub later on , amylia went home firsttt ...
went to ehub arcadee again ... spend almost our time there
becoz cnt play poolllllllllllll ..LOLs..
then off to foodcourt eatt...
me n sam shareddd while de rest buy their own ..
we laughed dam lot while eating...
smthin good for me i think
since long i really feel like laughin...

exams freaking coming near..
and i am still struggling for the first sub..
presentation on thrus , which i almost forgotten ...
i cnt imagineee..
tryin nt to put pressure on myself..
tryin nt to give up ...
really

sometimes, i think friendship can be complicated
i dono , i really dono ... might be super close with each other
yet so far from one anotherrr ... hiding truth n secretsss
it make me feel disappointed ...

i just need truth i guess

i just need my mind to be cleared away from pressure

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2009-08-30T22:17:00.002+08:00

SAT ---29 aug
went out meet sam go study at airport
meet her at sec sch ... tried to study a little..
nthing went in mind eh .. greatttt ....
then we start to chit chat and play ard ...
DOTS>. LOLS
went to tampinese walk ...
she saw children shirt.. and then she went
" i want buuy for my kid" , just nice a man walk past and
look at her...LMAO ..
really.. 4 children of 4 different fathers..LOL
de joke of my day i guess

SUN- 30 aug...
today wake up late .. jing reach my house before i bath finished
went out to buy ingredients and so onnnnnn ...
it rain .. so i walk in de rain then ..
i guess i havin fever sooner or laterrr ...
then wc n leen arrived..
so we start to bake ...
first time is a failed attempt ...
then we bake again ... and it succeeded ..
happy ...
finally..
we start at 5 plus .. end at 9 plus ...
duration --- 4hrs plus ^^

i had fun with them today ..
it been so long ...
we gona make another attempt another time
and i wan try cookin ..LOLOL

wish me luck ...

tml goin sch for half way ..
visiting sch from sec sch ...

^^

2009-08-29T22:42:00.004+08:00

lazy to blog..

quiz took from Fb
kind of true to meee

TAURUS-
The zodiacal Sign of Taurus commences on April 20th, but for seven days it does not come into its full power until on or about April 27th.
From this date onwards it is in full strength until May 20th,
and is then for seven days gradually losing its strength on account of becoming overlapped by the "cusp" of the incoming sign Gemini.

Taurus is the sign of practicality and possessions.
People born under the sign of Taurus tend to be very patient, practical and dedicated people. Such people are usually very cautious when dealing with people, life and money.
They have a curious power of dominating others, even when not conscious of trying to do so.
People who were born in that time are extremely faithful, with a strong need for security and a settled routine.
Although they are very earthy, they can also be highly romantic and sensitive when it comes to love.

They have great power of endurance, both physical and mental, and can pass through enormous strains of fatigue as long as the excitement or determination lasts.
They make wonderful hosts and hostesses, and have great taste about food, and in the management of their houses they can make much out of little.

These people often become excellent directors, have good business intuition, but are generally considered richer than they really are, as they always dress well and look well.

They are governed by their sensations and by their loving nature, but affection has a greater hold on them than passion.
Such people are also warm and sensual, with an appreciation of the fine things in life.
Taurus is motivated by a need for security; this sign is good for business matters and can be trusted to carry things through with absolute care.
These people are very strong-willed and often quite creative.
The Moon is exalted in Taurus, giving success with matters to do with the public and, combined with the influence of Venus, a passionate nature endowed with a strong sense of loyalty and fidelity. They are kind and generous with friends, with whom they develop an unspoken rapport.
If they love, they are generous to the last degree, and will consider no sacrifice too great for the person they care for; if they are enemies, they will fight with the most determined obstinacy. But they always fight in the open, for they hate trickiness, double-dealing, or deceit.
They are easily influenced by their surroundings, and become morbid and morose when trying to live under uncongenial conditions.

They are also too easily misled by their emotions, sensations, or affections.
As a rule both sexes are jealous in their disposition, and their jealousy often drives them into acts of violence or sudden exhibition of temper, which they bitterly regret when the storm is over.
They are at their best are typically strong and silent, but often appear ignorant and willfully obstinate to others.

They have an innate sense of harmony, rhythm and color, and often are very successful in music, poetry and art.
Those born in this sign have an ability to become the most faithful, loyal friends.
They also make good, patient nurses and healers, and almost all have a keen love of gardening and flowers.
Today horoscope Tomorrow horoscope Weekly horoscope Monthly horoscope Taurus -
The Sing of the BullTypical Taurus is a warm , gentle , passionate and friendly person , though he/she never shows it .
The bull - is the absolutely exact symbol of the sign.
People of this sign usually use force to achieve their purpose .
They frequently named " as salt of the ground ".
They perfectly know what they want and persistently work to achieve this purpose.
It is difficult for them to understand other people.
But in general the Taurus a positive sign.
People born under the sign of the Taurus are usually friendly, though sometimes and is slightly boring because of the restraint and reticence.

Friends-They will find their most lasting friendships with people born between August 21-27, and September 20-27, December 21 and January 20-27.

Health-In health, although, as a rule, endowed with a splendid constitution, they suffer with all things that affect the throat, nasal cavities and upper part of the lungs.

Color-The most favorable colors for them are all shades of blue. Red is an exciting color for them, and they should use it as little as possible. Stones.
The birth stones for this period are emeralds, turquoises, and lapis lazuli

~~~end~~~

incredible true to me for some points ..
except for friendship laa..
i guess.....

i tried to control.. in de end still had an argruement...

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2009-08-29T00:41:00.005+08:00

ERM, been quite awhile ar ???

this week is definitely the hell of my life in ITE
just torturing .. LOLS ..

last week , approached patricia to let her check for project
in de end she said she didn't want the report style we did..
it wasn't wad she was lookin for.. really we were like wtf
wasn't really intended to redo at first , really..
such a waste of time ..
but wad to do .. lifeskilss only could depend on project
so decided to redo ..

dono why ... i found myself finsihing de project in a rush
in that sunday n monday ...
that two days , i almost couldn't think at all ..
maybe is i put too much pressure on myself
finally done with project ..
i am happy den anyone else..

was goin to hav oral on thrus .. didn't realised was on thrus
been thinkin is wed all along..
when i found oout i was goin to hav oral on thrus..
i was panicking.. lifeskills presentation was also on thrus..
till patricia finally understood wad do de O level oral examination mean
and agreed on changing date for us ..
finally put down a burden

becoz of oral , didn't sleep well all de days
was tryin to practice all way long ...
had oral on thrus..
it was on lesson n friendship
shld i be glad .. god is helping me ???
maybe i might pass it ...

today went to museum ...
no lesson ... that smthin i need ..
a breakkk .... finally can relax myself..
but dono why ... gt one moment .. i feel very _____
smthin i hate that feeling

exams comin very soon.. de week aft next..
i am nt prepare for any paper..
starting to be another burden ..
i am tryin
tryin to study hard
pls don nag anymore..
de naggings make me giddy ..........

can't believe it ..

PPL downthere kp one saying F.T nt singing live
wad makes u think soooo ......
dam .... stop accusing F.T
wan see example of lip syn ... shld go see SNSD

~~i actually tot of giving up totally~~

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2009-08-21T21:49:00.002+08:00

this week schooling finally come to a end
happy , been eager to look forward everyday to pass
wed go tuition , finally ...
becoz next week is oral .. predicted teacher would be doin oral
what to expect there , just right..
still heard laughing .. irritating ...

today went to clementi wood for sakura..
22.40 dollars ..LOLOL .. but i think i only eat 10 dollars plus worth
things in total ... LOLOL .. it is nt my taste ... or maybe too full for sakura
then , we took a cab to dhoby ...
we just called w/o knowing our code number...
when a taxi came, just open de door and got in
lucky , correct .. LOLs ..
then walk ard before sam n ju went off..
me, amylia , desmond went to arcade..
quite bored.. becoz nthing to play .. no drums , no guitar..
selfish ppls ..
den went off to see Orphan ...
dam violent and maybe shocking ..LOLOL..
went back to arcade ... still nthing play ..
so in de end went home ..

exams comin in less than one month ..
i am freaking lost in dtg n iti ..
no confident i can make it at all ..
goin to hainan island during holidays ..
probably with class ... great ..first time .. happy ..

next wed got oral examination..
my worst time .. cnt help but to feel scare ...
haix

report had to redo ..
dam patricia chan ...
freakin stress ..

end~~~

Today is Song Seung Hyun birthday !!!

happy 17/18th birthday seung hyun ahh
have to admit , when u are announced to join in f.t
got no good impression on u ...
plus u are quite u know like to "boast" LOLs..
but den , slowly feel that u can be good too..
saw u at airport that day ..
de first n only one i saw .. maybe is fate ...
it wan me to change totally a diff view of u ..
yea it did .. totally attracted to u when saw u ..
upon de f.t showcase.. further make me like u
LOL..
right now , i hope that u would do bett each time ...
and be happy ^^
happy birthday once again ...
seung hyun ah ..fighting ..

F.T 6s -- FIGHTING ~!! SARANGHAE ♥

as for recent dbsk lawcase ..
there are more rumours on dbsk breaking up ..
wan change company ..
yea true .. jaejoong , yoo chun, junsu may wan to change company
but they won wan to disband dbsk ..
so until a confirm official news is make ..
i rather choose nt to believe...

Daesung operation was a successful
and would be discharging soon
happy , faster recover daesung
BIg band concet faster come ^^

chunsung was spot by a eye-sharp netizen that
he littered when filim show , i guess..
again littered , same as young seang..
pls .. my god .. idols are also human ...
littered.. most ppl do so i think ...
don make it a big deal, really ...
i think he know he is nt right too ....

i am still feelin that...
probably is becoz i just love too much

2009-08-17T20:45:00.005+08:00

blogger pb start again....
fb also gt pb..
nowadays de internet connection ah ...
nthin to comment

tired
feeling sick again

finished lifeskills, finally..

ytd, i almost lost it
today it broke ....
smthin nt right..
and yea it did

don accuse hyun joong n young seang
i freaking hate see-ing newspaper accusing idols
wad picking up hot girls .
wad if they are friends
i know hyun joong , he don like that style okay..
indeed feel abit disappointed on young seang
not becoz he smoke..
nowadays , which idol don , once reach legal age
start to drink and smoke..
hu say idol cnt smoke , den alot bands gona get spam le lor
but true , de act of young seang threw de crigette
make me feel sad.. he shld at least dump it well ..
oh coming to think abt it ..
hyun joong n young seang went out tgh
they not awkward anymore ?
wooooo ...
^^

i know young seang know his wrong too
but still stop accusing hyun joong n young seang
esp KIM HYUN JOONG

smthing good , the other 3 stay at home ..
don nd kana accuse ..

EDIT
decided to add on the facts incase some might nt know

Credit: http://star.mt.co.kr/ + TSTW (Chinese translation) + QuainteSS501
dating with Hongkong girl? No! It is a tour with friends.
Hongkong Apple Daily exclusive reported SS501 members Kim Hyun Joong and Heo Young Saeng dating with beautiful ladies at wee hours in HongKong at 17 August.
SS501's broker company DSP mentioned, Kim Hyun Joong & Heo Young Saeng joined 8 primary classmate to tour in HongKong after their Japan Bodukan Concert.
The scene captured by Hongkong media which they are shopping with friends in real fact is they accompanying their ladies classmates to shop.
It was captured by the paparazzi and overly reported and caused a lot of misunderstanding.
A lot of fans have waited in the airport for both of them after the media report of their Hongkong tour.
Currently Kim Hyun Joong and Heo Young Saeng are adjusting their return date and time to Korea.
******************
Just to clear the doubts of all the fans which are worry about them......
P/S: Sigh.... I did a wrong title, moderator pls help to change to 8/17 [News] Dating with Hongkong girl?
No! It is a Hongkong tour with friends

Sorry for the trouble.....

GUYs know the fact?? just read from other article..
kyu jong and hyung joon also their friends okayyyy

and this
kang eunbi"Antifans made me attempt suicide many times"
http://www.soompi.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=306526
so is either reporters or anti fans..
well i am anti of a group too , but at least de group is susposed to be anti
antiiiiii fansssssss are over doing it..
can't believe it she wanted to commit suicide before
during the period of jung dabin's suicide..
lucky, it didn't happen
give break pls..........

IDOLS NEED LIFE TOO

2009-08-15T22:29:00.002+08:00

haven recover from sickness totally
return back to sch , not sch actually ..
to be exact - bugis for flag day
de worst activity i can imagine i am doing ..
and of coz .. i didn't
is a sat , rather stay at home den go out ...
spend time off with friends here n there ...
well , flag day just ended fast when i having fun
ah , this is wad it is anyway ...

went to meet jing,leen, wc at dte aft that. ..
they say very long nv meet le ..
yea , think so too .. not for jing .. but de other 2
LOLsssss ..
hang ard awhile until amylia join us ..
off we went to mac for hem to eat dinner
then to ws arcade againnnnnnnnnn
spend money againnnnnnnn
play drums .. addicted ..
ask wc , leen play also ...
say dono how to play..
in de end........
score so welll...........
kana cheated .......
LOLs .. went home aft that

end~~~~~~~~~~~~~

like t-ara lies ... especially their mv
wahahs.. Yoo SeungHo ..
so matureee nowwww

second band which is goin same style like F.t island
DEBUTING soon ... in japan .. .first .. Zzzz
their name Code Name BLue
why is it called this ? i dono too ..
let wait for them to intro themselves
this time is 4 memberss group .. ah , nt really
just that seunghyun join F.t , that de thing.
but well , from their pics and preview..
hmmm , support them
they are same company as F.T ISLAND
which mean is their juniorsss
their offical album is on 19 aug ^^
nt quite into them yet..
neither i hope i will .. oh no..
no adding of addictions ...
still , lookin forward to their album ^^

C.N BLUE FIGHTING !

can't believe this.. really ..cnt ..

Choi Jin Shil’s Ashes Stolen
http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/choi_jin_shils_ashes_stolen/

how can anybody do such unlawful thing
freaking bastard okay ...
a person hu passed away , and u don even let
her had some peace ... wad kind of species are u
dam ! really hope de person kana captured soon

R.I.P choi jin shil
i respect u

2009-08-14T10:24:00.002+08:00

3 days on MC
fever, flu , sore throat
si liaooooooo ...
only fever gone ....

but still i am goin out later ^^

2009-08-08T20:59:00.006+08:00

today i really woke up late.. dono why ..
2.15pm seh .. ask kim come my house wait for me
and den we go out ard 3.05 ..
all de way , i tot is 3.30 start ..
till kim say is 3.15pm .. rush , but see no sight of anybody
late we know .. went ard to check ..but nothing
in de end didn't go for de show in cinema ..
i feel really sorry in heart ...
really hope that de person will understand
and eh i think confrim de concert is very nice ..
and since kim -- u are VIP ..
still must say i am sorry again

update news of todayyyyy

yoochun n jaejoong had a new tattoooo
oh woooo ... "keep the faith" or is "keeping the faith"
exactly the phrase cassie needed ...
didn't know jaejoong gt until kim told me ..
anyway he got also not surprising ...
LOLOL.. bet is nice... ^^

saw a forum of hyung joon n sunny
oh my goddd .. nuts.. why put sunny
becoz of 'M' ? a rumour becoz of hosting a music show
noooooooo wayyyyyyyy
no ss501 members will go close to any snsd

talking abt this .. shinee , snsd , kara , 2pm will be
appearing on sgb which is coming up soon ..
snsd again..sianx..why no f.t ... oh , wana make even groups ??
den shld nt add in snsd ... dots...
min hwan must feel sad ... key& nicole ? nicole&jay?
poor min hwan , nvm .. kp de faith on too ..
still gt us back u on ..LOL
also esp de few months older den u de noona
SAMANTHA ! lols
wa wa ,,nv talk abt hongki ..
nt too worry for him .. he will think of me anyway

been see-ing de cuts of hwan dramas ..
de acting is good ..LOLOLs.. potential of youngs ..HAHs ..
hongki move on to musical performance after experieces of acting , singers eh
well , smthin i don like...
why do he hav so much qing mi movements with her
even jaejin , seung ri also don hav ...
sad sia me... but then , hongki do ur best yahhhh!

hyun joong had a interview earlier on
is abt which girl from de girls'group he admire
that kind of surprise actually.. he say CL from 2NE1
LOLOL.. becoz she is cool ??
i know why ! becoz hwangbo is cool too right ..
LOLOL

heechul will be returning to drama aft 1 yr
LOLOls ... acting as a comedian or wat ...
aahas,, actually heechul is alrd a funny person don he..
lols .. but well .. jia you !

guess i fallin in love into wooyoung liao ..
no1 nickhun ----no2 wooyoung.
so dork n funny ... 2pm yo hoooooo ..LOL

read a funny article from suju forum
it is wad teukie told eunhyuk during sukira
a day that happen involve siwonnn

leeteuk : yesterday after exercising, suddenly siwon said he wanted to go han-gang(river) at 2am.
eunhyuk : at dawn?
leeteuk : yes… so siwon went to there by his small motorcycle and i drove my car.
eunhyuk : but that time, it was raining…..
leeteuk : yeah…in the rain…siwon said ‘ hyung! i’m macho!’ and he kept riding motorcycle…anyway, he arrived there before than me, and he called me ‘ hyung where are you? why are you late?’and he thought i was already over there and he started dancing in front of a car . he thought that car was mine…
eunhyuk : OMG… that was same style car as yours….l
eeteuk : yes… he kept saying ‘hyung get out! get out!’ and was dancing…and he thought ‘ oh my dance is not enough…’ and was dancing more hardly….
eunhyuk : he didnt know the person inside the car because the window was tanned black. leeteuk : yeah, and he said i didn’t get out , so he knocked the window and said ‘ hyung why don’t you get out!!’and the window opened with a suprised lady!! she was really surprised ” OMG!!!!!”and he ran away~~~~
eunhyuk : OMG, how embarrassing…. why was he doing that…kkk really funnyi always enjoy the story about our memers. they are doing really funny things~~

and leeteuk also said suju members were in busan except him and eunhyuk because of some event, but they wanted to stay more to enjoy beach and they were hanging out on the beach.
and donghae sent a text messege ‘ i wrote – forever super junior!!- on the beach~ and it’s really exciting!!’leeteuk said he was envy them…. but he hope they are enjoying the time because they don’t have any time to enjoy free time privately…^^

cr:tjdus@sj-world.net&& some photos to share..photo credit as tagged

while i readin this ..i was laughing at siwon behaviour as teukie describe
but at the same time i feel understandable for teukie feelings
becoz he seen to returning back to depress mood ..
wad to do , i believe he nv wanted to be depress ... hu will wan to be unahppy
it's just becoz he nv had as much free time as other members
teukie only can work work work ..
de only way to release some of his stress is when he attend varitey show
where he can laugh hard ...

LSM .. give suju rest ...
give others a rest man
stop avoiding ur mistakes can
be a man !

YOHOO wonbin ^^

won bin update his cyworld recently
he seen to be more cheerful nowadays ...
been thinking of u non-stop
when listening to music , when lookin at f.t pics
when see-ing f.t videos ..
become so nature now ...
watever things dat relate to f.t , u come to my mind naturelly
i am waiting for ur solo debut too ..
jia youuuu

today kim remind me of smthing..
if dbsk contract is need to sell millions of album to earn $$
wad about other bands ... suju , shinee ?
or others like ss501 , f.t , 2pm ,BB they all ..
or nt them , jsut sm artist will do ,
afterall de evil man hu plot all these is SM president
Low Supid Man
hope that suju n shinee won hav to go through so much
one is enough ...

tommorrow national day
HAPPY ADVANCE NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE!
early wishin ..tml nt updatin ..
monday goin out .. don think updating as well ..

KEEP THE FAITH

♥ Hongki,Hyun joong,Teukie
donghae, hwan,key, seung ri,woo young,nickhun,
DBSK ♥ YUNJAE

tangled up with everythin

2009-08-05T21:46:00.002+08:00

EVERYTHIN IS SO WRONG

didn't tot of blogging ..
but right now feeling burden ..
freakin bothered over alot things
fed up with everythin

need fresh air
something to high my mood

Zzzz

where are u

2009-08-03T20:08:00.007+08:00

FIRST OF ALL
TODAY IS BABY , SS501's baby
KIM HYUNG JOON 22TH !

happy birthday hyung joon ah ...
even though u are not my favourite of all
but i like u alottttt too eh ..
ur cuteness as maknae , LOL
now u are so mature with de fact ur childish nv change
ahahs .. happy 22th /23th birthday to eh ..
hopefully today u hav a great celebration ^^

SECONDLY
of coz on our dbsk
many fans had wondered wad happen to dbsk ..
why do jaejoong, junsu, yoochun wan to sue SM...
fans don jump into conclusion anymore

here it is de reasoon:

1..5 years after their debut, the three members are physically and emotionally fatigued from the company’s one-sided orders.
-Kim Junsu, Kim Jaejoong, and Park Yoochun debuted as DBSK members in 2004.
Since then, they have followed SM’s orders to go from Korea, Japan, to China.
With the exception of 1 week for year, they were only able to get 3-4 hours of sleep and had to go through schedules.
During this period, the health of the three members deteriorated and they were mentally fatigued.
However, SM pushed DBSK into foreign markets which resulted in excess performance plans.
In result, the three members felt that they would not be able to achieve their dreams in SM and
would be just tools for the company’s profit.
They wished to participate in entertainment activities according to their individual visions.

2.In reality, 13 years of contract meant a contract for life.
-According to the contract, the period of the contract was 13 years, but when including military service, would exceed over 15 years.
This meant that there was still 10 years to go with the current contract and in reality, meant until retirement.
In the instance that the contract would be breached, the penalty would be to pay 3 times the total investment, 2 times the lost earnings.
Even in the case that the contract is canceled when agreed by both parties, the members were required to pay penalty.
Therefore, due to the millions of wons required by the contract upon cancellation, contract cancellation was realistically impossible and the members had no choice but to remain in SM

3. The members did not receive adequate treatment from SM for their efforts. -Despite all this, during the duration of their contract, they did not receive adequate treatment from SM. They did not receive any earnest money from the contract, and according to the initial contract for album profit allotment clause, only when an album sold 500,000 copies, could they get $10,000 per member for the next album, and when albums sold less than 500,000 copies, the members could not receive any earnings. This clause was revised in 2009, February 6th, but even after the revision, earnings that each member would receive for the album sales were 0.4%-1% depending on the album sales

4. The members requested for corrections to the unreasonable contract, but SM did not listen to the member’s opinions. -In this situation, the three members pointed out the unreasonable parts in the contract and asked multiple times to be freed from the contract’s boundary and work according to their visions but in response to the current situation, SM discussed issues dealing with their investments in the makeup company, not responding to the true nature of the problem. Despite all this, the three members wanted to find a way to deal with the situation and requested for a conference where both parties could find a solution but SM did not respond. During this process, by the attitudes shown by SM, the three members realized that there was no point in hoping for a settlement and resorted to the court of justice to execute a solution for the problems.

5. The investment in makeup company does not have any relation to entertainment activities and does not have any relation to the applied provisional disposition. The nature of this incident is the contract. -SM stated that the disposition was submitted due to the investment but the members’ investments in the makeup company do not have anything to do with the provisional disposition. The makeup company SM discussed planned to export to China, and the three members invested as stockholders, having no relation with their entertainment activities. Just by common sense, it does not make sense that the members would give up all their efforts and results as DBSK in order to invest $100,000 to the company. The core of the problems presented by the members is contract injustice, and SM’s attempts to blur the true problems by bring up the investments must stop now.

6. The members do not want DBSK to break up and just hope to free themselves from contract restraints. -May fans are worried that the disposition would result in DBSK’s break up. However, this disposition was not intended for DBSK to end. Right now, due to differences in how the members wish to overcome problems, only 3 members have participated in the lawsuit. However, there is no problems within the members and they all have the same wishes to keep their promises with their fans to always remain as one. After this incident, if contract injustice is corrected and the members are given conditions to freely perform their music, they feel that everyone can be one and can stand in front of fans as one.

7. We will take this as an opportunity to mature. -The members realize how much DBSK fans must be surprised and be disappointed about this incident and are distressed and sorry. If the fans could think of this as a jump to bigger dreams and continue to cheer, the members promise to respond to the fans as better musicians.

edit~~ forgot to credit ..but dono is this nt
official Translations of jaechusu's press release. credit to j.adore @ soompi

this is the truth , not any other rumours
even though i always felt SM and LSM was a bad company & president
and they totally didn't care about other band except for de SNSD
i had nv tot of dbsk would freaking earn so little
lifetime contract.. wad do you think Low stupid person !
tryin to control dbsk forever ??!!!
now ! u gt no rights at all , even dbsk wan to scold u ,
u just hav to bow down and apologised..
it's just that everyone know dbsk is most band that respect ppl
that why they treat u good enough ... u are lucky, seriously..
save ur excuses .. fans know ur evil side okay !
try to dealt with dbsk , suju , shinee more ,
try to promote snsd more
very soon , u will be in dead meat

Just now after sch went to bugis with sam,amylia, her sis, shimin
was rushing them to shop fast so tat i can go see de
press conference at 7 SIN time
and den me n sam went to simlim see laptop n mp4
aft that went home
aft alighting from mrt .. i rush home asap
somehow really nervous ...
but den de press conference results nt out yet ..
eager to know de conclusion ... oh ..
LOL

till now no update news on de press conference
probably tml morning it will come out ..

DONG BANG SHIN KI
UKnow - Yunho
Hero - Jaejoong
Micky - Yoochun
Xiah - Junsu
Max - Changmin

the five of them will be tgh as one 4ever

even u are de president , low man , u will nv seperate the fives

2009-07-31T22:40:00.006+08:00

gotten back my DTG [GEO] paper
got 19 upon 40 ..failed by 1 mark..
ah , expected anyway ... just that i gt some
really careless mistake that make me lost that few marks
sian .. geo is torturing man ... i hate geo ...

wed - went to tuition finally ..
mark my attendance and then noticed i did not absent for
3 weeks but actually is 4 weeks . .LOLS.. pro ??
i guess so , did not practice oral that day
lucky , but teacher say probably next week..
why must said out , now i am finding excuse to skip tuition again

thrus - nthing much .. everythin as per normal
oh eh , late when meet up amylia n shi min
becoz of audition ... dam, tryin to dl n figuring out how to play
the whole few hrs .. LOLOLS...
went to elias more collect cheque after sch

frid -today
A WALKING DAY
went to sch in morning
today specially tired ... really tired..dono why
just couldn't sleep enough
mrt to sch sleep , in sch ITI -couldn't bothered much with
vincent jokes on how bad he treat his young niece n nephew
i just totally feel like sleepin throughout the whole day today
then after sch went home straight
bath den meet sam n amylia to bugis eat pasta mania
met up ju, mayferlin, wan ying , cheryl for lunch aka dinner too
then aft that we went to take neoprint ..OMG
feel so reluntcant for it , dono why .. maybe becoz too long nv take
and kind of waste money bah ...LOLOLs..
but well in de end, i still went for it ..
den walk awhile then we seperate our ways ,..
tgh with sam , amylia - we went to bugis street while the rest
visit to museum ...
walk walk walk ..den aft that go iluma walk walk..
den go to ghoby ghaut walk again ...
took a broacher from yamaha abt drums details
determin to learn le..i will
leg super tired ...

p.s pic nt ready yet .. shall edit n paste it again if i wan to..LOL

took this durin lesson -hyun joong & hwan ♥

today brought my hongki worx..! ♥

oh yesh , i got a scholarship ..
is for students hu is top 10 percent that go into ite..
wad to say lehx... i tot it was abt korean class when i took de letter ..
opened up le , see nt abt korean class den did not bothered much lerx
missy took de letter and see .. told me is scholarship...
well, kinda didn't feel excited ...
dono why ...
of couse there is a happy thing i hav to admit..
i got a scholarship lehx.. first and most likely de last time
but wat i feel de most is .. de scholarship is given becoz i entered ite
eh, i dono how to describe , it's just complicated..

CELEBRITIES TIME

where shld i start from .. my mind is so pack with diff things..

kara comeback today
went to see the performance..
is kinda great and revolution ... a definite different style from their usual
haven get used to their new songs yet.. need time still...
wonderful kara. !
saw at shinee forum, nicole thxs key on her blog
although dono why but that shows they will friends isn't it
ah , shoot hwan n nicole , nicole n key.. die..both my favs..

wonder why snsd so suck up to korean boys'band
first - dbsk , second-super junior third now -shinee
wad jessica n jonghyun sexy love story ..crap !
saw a video clip where jonghyun , ryeowook and jessica in de radio show
and i tot how did de girls from snsd manage to control de guys
see-ing jonghyun just take de headphone from her ear to his ear instead
is like .. oh my god... wad happen to u jonghyun..
worst.. jh n ryeowook fighting for her.. wth ..
extract from soompi:
SD/SY: So Jessica, who are you closer with, Ryeowook or Jonghyun?
Sica: .....But I can't really say who. I'm very close with both of them.
SD/SY: Ohh...I see. Looks like they were competing. For pride...
Sica: Were you competing?
Jonghyun: ...A little.

dots. .. stop pretending ..

probably this is most hottest and impt news right now
dbsk 3 members - yoochun , xiah junsu and jaejong had
file a lawsuit against SM ..
although this new is not official announced but as far as we know
SM had too much negative rumours ..abt plastics and contracts
i can't helped but to think that SM is one of de reason that
yoochun are depress abt ...
rumous will spreading that dbsk gona disband ..
nah , don believe that ..
even de lawsuit is true, even yunho n changmin did not make a
filesuit also ..but dbsk won disband becoz of SM
hu are they - dong bang shin ki alright !
de link to de new:
http://www.soompi.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=305293

becoz of this , sometimes i start to wonder..
did leeteuk can depress becoz of this too ..
did onew get depress becoz of SM also ...
even snsd also can get depress , kinda unbelieveable
but well eh , all de depressing' soul come from SM
did they get depress becoz SM
freaking idiot SM ..

BOF now showing still so slow.. die le la sing
come on show finsihed faster & get over it ..

beings fans can be troublesome too ah ..LOL
hoping own idols to go popular day by day
but then don wan too many to know abt them also..
wahahs ... confusing ..

heart pain to u all in this type of news

first time heart jump so fast beocz of U's

filled with complicated

2009-07-27T22:18:00.003+08:00

skip sch today , don wan go for test
haix.. bad student ah .. i know..
u believe ???!!! u are fool !
alright i know i am lame ..
went to sis uni graducation ceremony
wa... so grand man ..
and of coz is quite boring too ..LOLOls
wanted to post a pic , but blogger seen weird
don allow me to post pic lehx..LOL

edit~becoz of sam ... de older blogger is back..

de pic of me n mum at sis's grad ceremony

forgot again ...
somethin i wan to blog..
but my mind is all blank ...LOL
tml got ctr test .. pray hard..
really ,that i can go through it ..

i think gona fall sick soon le..
really ... get wet in the rain today ..
went to sleep , wake up..
nt feelin well...
nt feelin well = sick = no sch = happy ??

teukie organise a club for all depressions pees
he , snsd dono hu , onew , yoochun join de club
i dono why.. i tot teukie has been feelin bett ...
why onew and yoochun too
why ????
probably this club is not a bad idea..
but i am still worried for them ..
onew. yoochun , and my teukie
teukie ah , u been in depression for so dam long
freakin worried me..
even though dono why onew also in depression
but shinee will support u ..
also yoochun ... though hardly go notice u last time
but den - don get into serious depression OKAY
dbsk always with u ...yoosu u know..
guys be well soon !!!

edit ~ heard that changmmin was selected for a drama
what is happening now ....
LOL.. every idol goin into drama ???
aft BOFs , it seen that more idols especially singer
getting into acting..
but well , good luck changmin , yunho
YUNJAEMIN fighting !

depressed

2009-07-26T14:20:00.000+08:00

didn't go out today , kinda bored
but well , can spend my time see shows le
addicited to drama again ...
goin crazy over it soon ...
LOL -[close friends would know why]

tml not going sch since tml is missy grad ceremmony
cool .. i can skip sch for one day ...
pees don miss me lehx..
i know u all won ..LOLOL

kara wana comeback teaser see le
totally different style from last time of kara
their comeback on 31st july
good luck kara
win snsd !

ah , dieeeeee
yunho gona cast in a show called heading to the ground
OH No ! with go ara , de one in dance subaru ..
siao la.. she so dam pretty lor..
lee yoon ji would be also participating..
sadded ! kangin will be heartbroken ??
blah ! yoonji blessed ah to act with yunho...
confrim there would be kissing scene ..
sianx ... they tryin to break up yunjae ..
WHY !
lols.. over-reacting..LOLOL..
yunho ah ! don fall in love go ara lehxxxx
LOLOLs

nowadays , ss501 don hav any special news ah
sianx .. been concerntrating on shinee and
f.t island ...LOL..
f.t island !!!

ss501 pls comeback soon..LOLOL

2009-07-23T21:42:00.003+08:00

decided to blog one day earlier this time

sch of this week is coming to the end soon ,
feel so delightful abt that..

got test on tues , wed , thrus this week
so stress ..really ..
with the presentation ...
oh freaking come on , burden me ..
the possibility of passing my iti , dtg test ..
oh LOL .. less then 40 percent i guess ...
presentation - definitely poorer than iti ...
just hope that i won pull down my group members'
mark seh .. or else..dam guilty ...

sch pb is not gona ended...
i am really exhuasted alright.. really ..
just come on face de fact and give some personal space
u know , we do need proximity too ..
goin sch also need to feel scare of ppl
how pathetic are we ..
or maybe her ...
lying to herself again non-stop...
if u really able to change urself ? did you try ?

ytd - she almost wan kill de maid..
crazy women ... using all those cans to threw at her
dam u .. wad do u think u are doing
do you think u got de right...

today - tryin to create chaos again
throwing up , shouting for my mum
crazy ..
the person's bro came aft my mum called
he called de ambulance..
great lor.. when de ppl step into de house
i am using the comp , i look at them ..
they look at me , i suddenly felt a weird feeling
maybe they will think i am unfilal ?
great .. if ppl misunderstood me , i got no choice too
wat to do ...
at the moment , lost is wad i felt...
shld i fake a care for her ..
not as if i don care but well ..it's okay
i guess .. it's complicated ...
anyway she is hospitalised now ...
some peace

end~

joshua ang , de one hu act in i not stupid ...
his mum passed away .. during a sleep...
he was depressed ..
but i hope he will recover soon
r.i.p joshua's mum

listening to DNT new idol group song
ju intro to me...
ok la.. alright to me..
have to listen more..LOL

suju SS2 pics i saw le..
my god.. super nice...
lee teuk , donghae ... heechul , eunhyuk
dam attractive ..LOLss

wana buy ss501 poster...
where to buy it .. where where where..LOLOL
sianx laaaaaaaaaa....

right now still in f.t island wonderland..
addicted to drums and electric guitar
need save money ... for dam lot things
1)ss501 concert
2)f.t island concert
3)go korea & jap
4)learn drum n electric guitar

wonder how much it will cost.. more than 2000 i think
LOLOLOL .. where am i goin to find de money from?

i miss you all !
lee hongki♥kim hyun joong♥lee teuk !

f.t island ~ 6 as 1 ♥

i got so many things to talk to ..
but right now my mind is all blank .. cool ...

stress in sch

no motivation= lost&complicated

2009-07-18T00:53:00.006+08:00

thrus- 16july

nthing much .. just rushing memorising script

frid- 17 july
today iti presentation ,
was super nervous during de process of waiting
shi min , sze hui , amanda down there talk abt de thing
sometimes i also add in .. to let me relax
but look like either me or sze hui were bring minus marks ?
LOL
screw up for iti presentation anyway

dtg this comin tues
iti test on tues , dtg test on thrus ..
stress la
went badminton , so long since we reopen sch
play with sze hui .. wa..sweat dam lot

meet up jing in at nite went to watch harry potter
alot ppl say it is nt nice..
yea , is indeed no exciting part but more of funny parts

scences that i like :
-how ron want to win de position of keeper becoz hermione
-when hermione cried becoz of ron got into a relationship
-ginny give harry moral support
-when ron mumble hermione name when he is asleep
-draco malfoy cried in the toilet probably becoz of his guilt
most highlight
- when malfoy tell dumbledore in a terrible tone
"u still don understand do you , i hav to kill you ...
or else , he will kill me"
my god ... totally into him ..

past-time malfoy

now malfoy

my eyes struck to tom felton[malfoy] other
than ron n hermione part ...
dam handsome him wearing the black suit ..
LOLs

waiting for New Moon n Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallow

edit ~~

jungmin had a music bank performance with jisun
at music bank.. WOW !
it is a good performance yahhhh

suju gt their super show 2 concert
teukie cry again when he see their videos n fans' tears

the crying angel

but i still prefer a smiling teukie ah ! ♥

another lovely one - donghae ♥

almost addicted to 2Ne1 song let's go party
but now addicted back to f.t island ....COOL

80s f.t island ..LOL ^^ shuai

gorgeous jonghun ^^ look like a doll ??LOL♥

sensational dear minhwan ^^ ♥♥

amazing seunghyun , jaejin ^^♥

jongki love ^^ ♥♥

and number one husband - hongki ^^ ♥♥♥

♥♥♥ in f.t island wonderland ♥♥♥

tired~~~

2009-07-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday indeed wasn't in good mood
today is bett i guess ..yea .. probably

frid gt presentation n test ..
kind of stress. .. really ..
especially for presentation
even can read from script .. it won help me much
unable to overcome de fear so long
now , just 2 days , even mission impossible ...

today i get my message from god again
it's just daily rountine for me actually ,
to get a message each time when i log in facebook
today message is super accurate ..
it is probably de most meaningful message this week ..
even though i nt sure if this is set up in real or fake
but i treat every message a real message ..
so thus this message i got for ..
struck directly at my heart

On this day of your life, Min, we believe God wants you to know... ...
that humans learn only by trial and error, and that includes you.

You've got to live life, not think about it. Step into the midst of things, try and fail and learn and stand up again. The question is not whether you will or will not make mistakes - you will. The question is do you want to learn and grow, or do you want to shrink back and be stuck? Take that step you've been avoiding. You can succeed, or you can get feedback that it didn't work, but in either case you are sure to feel alive

haven been living a real life these few months
just like partly of my soul fly away ...
basically - one word , i am indeed avoiding , avoiding everything
everythin is nt wad i wanted...
lookin for somethin that make me hav strength to go onn
first is f.t island
now is harry potter
later ? wad is my motivation ..

ytd house in chaos again ,
hate to see mum feel so upset
want to really study hard for mum ,
but don hav de heart
de chaos ... it drag too long
again, tryin to avoid all these ...

too complicated ..
so much of a good life i having

if hav to be so complicated..
i rather live in my dream

2009-07-14T21:09:00.000+08:00

just so fcuk up , everythin

2009-07-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

sat 12 june

met up jing they all go out
really quite long nv go out tgh lerx..
and of coz wc again was late..LOL
went out to help them see formal clothes for presentation
LOLS ... throughout the whole day, jing want buy this n that
kind of stopping her to buy things ..LOL
i guess sometimes she feel like killing me..LOL
wanted to buy ticket for HP but don hav
sad la ... i wan see..desperate to see ..LOL

sun-
intended to do some research on presentation stuffs
in de end off to went to use comp see videos.
see de Atashinchi no Danshi finished just in one day ..
my speed is back again right..LOL
well done jing .. u intro a good drama to me first time..LOL
the 4th son ... i tot he quite young .. but he same age as
maki horikita .. great .. and he is de one hu act as koizora
drama de male lead..omg.. so ..different la
i think he act this drama bett than koizora..really..LOL
aim to see last friends n 1 litre of tears..
no time yet

mon-today
sch as usual ..kind of bored , really .
especially vincent lesson .. first time ...
watever jokes he say i don find it funny sia.. LOL
sometimes still think he quite annoying , kp on saying the
wad sex or watever thing that is m18 ..
lols... maybe really becoz today my mood nt good..
went home force myself to do research on attractions i
gona presenting...finally.. i do so ...
worry abt the presentation on frid.. aft 2 mths lesson
finally presentatipn , great , my stage fright is back
jing went to ehub bookn ticket le..happy la
frid i can see..
so i can conclude frid is a good n bad day ?
bad- presentation
good-harry potter
LOL

2009-07-10T16:15:00.001+08:00

monday started sch
everything are like just as per as normal ..
there is a change in teacher for EFC
no longer mr.vincent
oh no , why ..that teacher super bored ...
today no cca , quite disappointing , not just me
but also my other badminton mates...
everyday looking forward alot seh ....
alot things happened in de sch , is too troublesome to say out
everything ... but well ...
my two friend dating sehhhh..
OMG , so soooooo ... small world..LOL
been sick for 1 weeks plus , i guess i won recover so fast and
i even pass to some illness to amylia ..T.T pro ah ..
becoz having bad cough , flu, sore throat..
i did not go tuition again
well , but well is part of my plan too .. using this as excuse
not to go as well .. such a good girl i am right
oral just ard there in 5 , 6 weeks time ...
and i bet i myself are not ready for it ...
haix ,,sianxx
next two weeks will be freaking busy , need to prepare
2 presentation , 3 testes ... siao la ...
presentation , i starting to worry but wad to do anyway...

today is whose birthday ??? LOLS
today is super junior kim heechul birthday
his 26, 27th birthday eh

even though he grow older one yr ..
but with his character..LOL..i bet he will nv feel so..

kim heechul -shii, maintain ur character okay
straightforward .. i like it ...
so unique which make u so special ..LOLS..
but don hang ard too much with de girls... LOL
or else u really very hard get wife oh..LOL..
happy birthday

very soon on the 18th , taemin birthday ^^

so long aft f.t island went back to korea..
i still struck in de dream , de live that i see them in real life
so unbeliveable ... wanted to come out from de dream
yet they gona release new album, their 3rd album
seen hongki new hair colour ...
their preview..
once again, fall into their charm ..wa lao ..
LOL.. seung hyun look really good in de preview..de hat ..LOL
miss wonbin too

edit~ ss501 solo collection mv ep 2 /final ep come out le
chiok la ..LOLS.. i super attracted by jungmin and hyun joong
when they are in the car driving..LOL

i gona meet up jing, wc, leen tml ..
well , me and jing gona try our luck if
there is harry potter sneak preview...
i desperate to see harry potter..
really, aft waited so long..LOLS...
the most impt thing i wan see is..LOL
rupet and emma ^^

edit ~ gona pass my f.t island showcase poster to sam le
since i using another poster of f.t island , i guess i shld not
let the poster get wasted ..took pic of that poster as memory
LOl .. sam ! bett take good care of de poster or else i nt goin
to trust u liao ah...LOL

gtg , will update again

lost nowhere

2009-07-05T14:21:00.000+08:00

oh noooooooooooooo , sch starts tml !!!!!!
so i decided to blog today before i am gona busy with projs again

thrus-2/7
went out with mum to see if there were any dress to buy ..
went to sch to collect ticket from mr.ng
well , told mr.ng possibility of not coming is high since i am sick
thxfully , mr.ng super nice ...
then went off to century and ws .. .in de end i brought 2 items
a dress and a top ..

frid-3/7
10th ani day, really getting worse ..
headache .
at home de whole day , resting .
use comp for entertainment

sat-4/7
went out with mum n missy late noon
go out eat dinner , missy treat .. of coz must eat alot alot
LOLSSS ... aft that , mum went to work ..
me and missy went home seperately ..
reason-i don wan help her carry thing.ZZZ
then went home use comp again ...
my nails broke , dots ... so urgly ...

took pics while waiting to eat ,LOL , wanted to delete
but decided to add background colours ..
look so fun ..LOL

sun-5/7
receive this mess from tan xiin xiin ..
wanted to send ..but sms limited..Zzzz
so post here and there i pass this mess to all my friends
and back to tan xin xin ...

天上星♥亮晶晶♥
认识你♥很开心♥
星空里♥万颗星♥
有一颗♥是我心♥
想我时♥找星星♥
失眠时♥数星星♥
许愿时♥等流星♥
祝福你♥永开心♥
把这封信息发给你的好朋友…1人~★永远找不到你的知心朋友★
10人~★有人向你告白★
20人~★有人向你告白但那人是你的爱人★
30人~★你会永远幸福快乐★
50人或以上~★你的愿望都会实现(不管有多困难)★
〓这是真的〓

done~~~~

harry potter showing soon !!
but i not see-ing on de week it come out
too squeeze, would be seeing on 2 week with jing
wa lookin forward man .. emma and rupert ..LOL

in a lost world now
struggle to wait for f.t showcase
now , nthing for me to go on
i don want wad i am goin through now
admire wonbin for his courage
if i hav too ..
den i won lost now
somehow i just use my unrealistic dream to make me happy

cnt absorb anythin
feel like giving up any moment
it's seen so easy for me to give up for everythin

2009-07-03T14:05:00.000+08:00

a confrim 90percent clear view of f.t island
for those hu nv went can see ur fav from here ler

a few sentences that f.t island tried to speak in eng ..

♥f.t island
6 treasureland

wonbin fighting!
f.t island fighting!